ihatethis.

paula's right.

this sucks ,everything sucks.

chinese teacher's singing and it wierd and it sucks.

you reap what you sow.

or is it karma.

whatever it is, it just lies beneath me, right.

smile .

just smile..

RAWR.

school's starting tmr.
ima die.

):
im not ready.
just saw the new time table.
Mr lam's gone.
so our emath teacher is now mr chia.
i think its good news.
easy to adapt i guess.

chem teacher also changed back to mrs sia.
so glad.
supper glad.
phewsh.

feels like tmr's the first day of school for the year.
odd.
scared abit.
iono why.

ima be ima beee.
...
okay.
art students are dead for art too.
23rd the submission .
so.. yep.
im scared.
starting to panick.

move my pencil.
and my butt.
ima be ima be ima beee.

bye.

i feel a tear in the inelastic tissues of my calf.

yowuch.

pain ah pain.

i had fun today (:
at least for the second last time for june holss.

today, went to eastcoastpark with
panda, pokes (joanne ) , subra and pandri (thinesh)

so... it rained ):
the trip there already took up half my energy and left me 1/4 dead.
that was how painful it was.
._.
met up with panda and bra at clementi and trained there.
then took bus from the int of which we had no idea where in the world we were heading.
saw the bus, then just run for it ah.

walkwalkwalkalkwalklkwlwkalkawalklakwlkwalk till we found mac.
and saw thinesh and pokes.
thinesh paid for our lunch.
uhh... for his birthday.
belated
odd.
it should've been the opp way.
but the milo really helped .
haha.
then it rained.
wanted to cycle immediately..
):

anw, they went to play pool.
panda was our guardian , big bro, boss , bf.
i dono.
he was just older than all of us , me.
):
so we were allowed to.
without the consideration of me attempting my first try and just slightly flicking the white ball,
nope , i did not play.
watched them played
and i must apologise for being toooo restless.
like really restless.
ended up sitting on the other pool table and blah.
hate the rain.
oh yeah, played table soccer too.
kinda dumb.
but haha, wadayounoe
everything's better than pool when you're bored.
(:

thought the rain stopped but it didnt.
so went to bowl.
ima loser.
who cares.
haha, and my arm hurt.
soooo.... pain ah.
then went to the second level, where there was an arcade
and the guys were kinda facinated by some
punchthechinesetalkingsumo.
yep.

finally got to cycle for an hour
and it rained for less than 5 mins.
yay.
haha, then had milk tea and cycled back.

went to buy milk , then went back with all of them
by bus.
to bukit panjang.
i still dont quite understand where it is.
then took bus to westmall with panda ,bra and pokes.
followed panda to eat

thenn...
went home.

leg hurts .
hurts
so
good.
not.

ouch.
):

finally realise why this post is so empty.
we forgot to take picture today.
...
):

okay bye

hyperventilation.

hyperventilate?
hyperventilating?

oh, reality check aye?
guess wad?
i feel useless.


tennis today.
supposedly .
arms feel sore.

in this world, everything aint fair.
wish i was in my own world then.

hmm, sacrifice.
its when you take your own time for someone and feel happy.
and dont expect anything more in return .


i think i should learn.


i give up on skullcandeh.
waste of money .

hopes , hopes .
dont think im wide awake yet.
icewater bath.
teheh

bye.

oh lawd,
help me find solace.


i feel lost.


as well of the aspect of my holiday assignments and revision.
fag.

i dont know where to start on the revisions.
loads of teachers preached about how we should have started from what, during march , beginning of the year?
sis said i should start now, or after june.
easy for her to say, she 's got much livelier brain cells and bigger head than me.
and now i feel like im hogging my butt in the middle of nowhere or space,
not even talking about art.
dead line's like, 23 july?
dont noe abt the others,
but for me, im starting to panick.
my final art's still quite surreal to me.
i mean literally surreal.

want to ask other sis for help.
kinda.
but she's grumpy.
and she got D7 for O level art.
cos she left it alone.
gave up. something.
i dont wanna get 7s in my cert.

oh yeah,
other sis came back yesterday.
kinda missed her.
kindaa.
she was like, homme sweeet hoommmee.
till she saw she her laptop lying somewhere in the midst of the other room
and her bedsheet-less bed which was done by other sis.
she brought back presents too.
she gave dad shirts and mom shirts and sis shirts.
and bought grandpa some stuffs.
we went for lunch after picking her.
supposedly for dad's day.

anw, after we came back in the evening,
i accompanied dad to the other house.
miss it pretty much.
missed neighbour too.
apparently there were bird nests in the aircon filter.
so went back home with dad and went back back to the other house.
dismantled the thing, took out the nests ( gross ) , vaccumed it, changed the board , paint it with anti- fungal paint, nailed it , and mantle it back.
odd.
but i think it was kinda great, to get to go back.
missed the primary school times where i used to go cycling with neighbour or rosalind all the way to chinese garden after going home from school.
the no-need-to-study mood.
think a lil bit of it is still in me.
heh.
stupid bike.

've been listening to oldies again these few days.
nice nice.
beegees and carpenters and russell watson's and U2.
better than fast music now.
headache ah.

okay,
have not touched on either humanities revison nor holiday assignments.
and english too. and 1 physics paper. and abit of art cos IM STUCK.
time to get started i guess.

okay byee

mend my heart ,











and shred it with your bare hands.








that was how i felt.










anw, HAPPY DAD's DAY.
dont noe about yours, but mine's still snoring.

OH MY LAWD.

DDDDDDDDDDD'::::

that's how i feel.

i feel sore.

sis and dad's going NZ at the end of the year.

yay!

wait.

without me.

ha ha ha.

i wanna goooooo

they said can...

guess when is it?

late october to mid nov.

i feel like crying.

and guess wad?

i'll be hogging my butt on O levels.

dad said, wait until you finish your exams then go lor.

sis says, provided that you can pass. haha.

URGH.

anww, the pic above 's with pokes.

we took it yesterday , while doing CIP.

think its the wierdest , slackest , most boring CIP ever.

but for 5 hours , its kinda worth it , i think.

cos i havent clogged much in the entire sec sch life.

went slightly early and met up with pokes.

i was earllyyy.

haha, we're even.

went there , havent even get our butt warmed and she said she was starved.

so we went to 7eleven.

blah blah.

soon after started the CIP, officially.

just did holiday assignments.

and count the number of ppl that bothered about global warming.

really , poor earth.

haiishh.

J: '' seriously, who gives a damn about earth ''

X : haha can see

J: oi, that includes us.

X : oh , yeah.

did work, waited for break.

mostly that came were kids.

and there was this odd kiddo that kept coming back to the comp.

X : irritating sey, he keep coming back. urgh.

J : then how?

*librarian walks pass.

L: just count .

and he came back like 4/5 times.

-.-

had break after break , went to find books.

wanted to find colasanti.

DONT HAVE.

they said its not on loan ):

been wanting to read it for 923128309131 years alr.

i think im old.

heh

soooooo,

end up just walking arnd some bookshelves

and borrowed 2 books.

daniel's not talking and some other book.

i liked the first book.

but pokes stole it before i could start on it.

tch.

so, today.

went out with panda and watched the A-team .

it was kinda interesting .

odd that all of a sudden i have an interest for action movies.

i dont...

nooo.

just this once.

heh.

then went to IMM to meet venus and write some card for mrlam.

having youth band tmr..

dont feel like going.

cos its kinda new.

with new ppl and i dont like new ppl.

its kinda quiet there.

no more inside jokes and stuff.

cos new ppl.

nvrm..

oh yeah, went out with rosalind on monday.

long long long long time since we met.

catch uppss.

but she go shopping uh.

then we watched movieee

watch shrek 4

was kinda okay

but not at funny as expected

at least we gta catch up.

ok im tired.

bye

cos im anti-social.

for real.

):

I will not be sticky.

























this is what you need.






i feel like going for a swim now.
good idea.
okay bye.






hey watcha doing?

i was actually asking

hey, where're you going?



hopes are meant to be lifted sky high.
then hit rock bottom instantly.
those are hopes.

1 buck a day,
skullcandehh ftwwww



bye.

just swallow , woman.


and i didnt even get to ...

ohwhatever.noone'sgivingashit.

For my sake...




i wish.


shouldntevenhaveasked.

sometimes, i've gotta learn to shut my trap.
think before i speak.
is it really that of an unreasonable request?

i think im just being pathetic.


i should just learn.

Spuds.











Saying hello means im afraid.









so,










hello.

.
..
...
....
.....
......
.....
....
...
..
.



think i really am.
bye

Cicak!

-.-

its the holidays.

2nd week to be exact.

seems like the first day

and im sick.

not mentally.

urgh, nevermind.

it sucks.

foundation programme for sec 4s finally ended.

and my ez-link card ended with it too.

was kinda late on one of the days.

cool.

first time late in the entire year.

kinda nice.

cos missed half of EL.

tehehhhh.

...

stayed back nearly everyday for art

on one of the days we had photoshoot too.

not an ideal place and it was my first.

so , i think it was quite okay.

took one shot of pokes and was really nice.

too bad she hated it.

and...

cnt upload those pics cos nas using for Os.

):

friday had the band farewell party.

well... it was short.

but at least it was quite okay.

i took lots of pictures!

look. (:

okay im lying.

this was the only pic .

):

but its better than nutss.

but had polaroids too (:

olii.

im really gonna miss her alottzszsxzxszxzs.

):

oh well..

oh yeah.

saturday had the first band prac too.

it was boring.

and i lost my ambourchure.

its gonee ):

and we played... asian selection 2

-.-

its like one of the few songs that mr hoe gave up on in BVMB.

pilatus too.

haha.

oh yeah, and we played the animation medley too.

partly.

abit empty.

there was a trumpet solo too.

very empty.

everyone noes why.

hahaha

-.-

sorry..

went to msia yesterday with family..

boring boring boring.

ate kenny rogers

came back... and got sick

had fever.

today too.

hopefully i can get my butt to sch tmr.

wna do art and collect my darn ezlink.

if not have to crawl home everyday.

whatever.

ok byee