i have a goldfish brain.

no kidding.

):
okay i can stare at this 4-sided cow box and keep turning it every 2 secs for the whole day and never get sick.
its cool !
nvrm...

sis-sy bought me an itouch gen 4!
i love you sis-sy.
but my washing machined and scotchtaped ipod is gna be hers permanantly.
its okay ):
i love sis-sy !

byebye

531th post.

that's alot.
anw
hmm.
hmmm..
hmmmmm...

yst was a normal day i guess..
besides the fact that i got :
pushed away by my sis when using the mirror ,
she called me a skanky old biatch too.
she's 21 btw.
elder sis drove me to school and nearly headed home without dropping me off at school.
WOW, think she forgot i existed ):
umm, received an empty paper bag from jess and han
stared at han eating her bread in the morning.
saw a red cicak jump out of the stack of junk i was holding , from the class ''storeroom''
got bruised by panda in the arm. now my arm looks like a panda ):
corine scolded me when i handed her a worksheet
hugged pokes
watched some ridiculous vid during art.
and have a new companion , bulbasaur.
got cheated upon by my bestest friend and boyfriend.

yep.
haha no , kidding,
the last one's fake.
i thinkkk..
hmm
yesterday was great. (:
really.
think it was the best birthday in my entire life.
i know 16 years is pathetic.
nvrm.
heh
school was alright.
had 2 periods of cleaning up
red cicak, cool but gross .
haha. think jess loved it.
...
then had 2 periods of EL.
practically stoned / talked with jess.
think i felt better.
alot better.
thanks jess (:
thanks han (:
had recess
talked to pokes.
i missed pokes.

3 periods of art.
ha ha ha.
the guys followed mdm maz to the SEAB thing.
and came back.
did some math paper.
that's all. haha
went to mos burger with panda
and home-ed.
went home and opened the cake box that jess and han gave.
kept laughing so hard at their drawings.
haha, especially the bus
and huijuan's body with jess's head.
lawd.
haha.
and they gave me a bin-full of sweets.
to share with them.
odd
got a shock of my life (HAHA)
when i turned the cup over
and slip of blue paper came out.
it said , WATER.
ermm..
thanks guys (:
promise i'll have nightmares using the cup and plate.
hahaa

met up at JP with panda.
i thought we were just going out alone.
went to swensens and some wierd person was sitting there.
somehow.
she covered her face.
i thought she was louisa.
whoops.
it was rochelinee.
haha
!!!!
i drank a lil coffee.
yay
umm, think i shant elaborate the rest .
those shall just be personal memories ah.
(:
hope we got photos.

oh yes, i do thank my family for everything.
and thanks sis.
she bought me this super ''woman '' wallet.
so woman.
i have no idea how to use it
when second sis saw , her jaws dropped.
lol
i love it anw (:

anw , panda was really sweet.
if i thank him again i think ima get another bruise.
so.. ):
i loved the cake especially .
hee.
my sis and dad nearly finished it D:
i came back and saw cream on my dad's moustache.
yeah...
panda gave me a skull-candy onear earphones.
was really sweett (::::::::
i love you panda (:
thank you rosalind for the accompanian too.
felt great to celebrate with panda and rosalind.
not expected, but was really special.
hahas

mom: where're you now?
me : im sixteen, don wan come home alrrrr.

she texted me .
i was at home yaw.
._. <---------------------
hahaha

got back emath paper 1 and science paper 2 (phy) today
prelim results.
generally alright so far.
so far.
): ): ):
today is weini's birthday.
i mean miss yeo.
no idea why i rmb-ed
haha
bulbasaur's joanne btw.
she has bubbles.
okay that's gross.

mugmugmugmugumgmugmugmugmugmgumugmug

byebye.

empty-ness.

prelim's over.
great.
today was one last paper.
before O levels.
ha ha ha.
i feel like crying.

ok bye

stared blankly at this page for a close 10 minutes pondering.
guess i shouldnt put our picture up here.
it should just be left empty , just like how im feeling right now.

had one hour had school doing science paper 1.
MCQ.
i couldnt sleep last night.
maybe a couple of forty winks.
but i kept waking up.
i kept thinking.
and somehow , somehow
the physics formulas kept appearing in my mind.
f r e a k
walked right home just now.
felt good to just think.
and stone
and walk
and think
and walk
yeah you get the point.
anw ,
walked passed the busstop behind our school.
and i thought of you, us.
was thinking bout the last time we had a good talk
it was right there.
its nearly a month now i guess.
thinking about what you said then , really do make sense now.
then i walked on and saw you from afar.

life.
anw, tmr's last prelim paper.
finally.
and then Os .
not very desirable , but yeah
needa get over it.
okay bye

fml.
im really tired.
im really really tired..

i want coffee.
anw, today had science(physics)
it was okay overall..
i guess so.
so much for easiness aye han.
finished exam went to accompany han and tan to eat.
yada yada yada.
finally found someone of my kind.
you'll be shocked.
han.
ha.
she likes emo songs too.
exception of those chinese songs .
we listened to ipod tgt while studying for awhile at mac with jess and kyt.
not quite i think.
anw i left shortly.
that's my day.
bye.

take me away to january ,
im done with this year im tired of everyone here.
i just need some time alone
before im ready to come back home.
nice song.
ha ha.
bye

okay well.
lots of stuff's happen.
gone.
either.
when we say you either cherish it or lose it,
its not fair.
i cherished, yet lost it.
its really a prove from the high and above that i dont actually deserve friends.
thing's havent been cheery for me lately.
for me , for him, for her, and for them.
it occurred to me that what seemed at sight wasnt true.
it occurred to me that it turns out i was a backstabber in other's perspective.
i wish.
i really wish..

anw , looked through older posts.
from 2007 till now.
just glanced.
from the time when huijuan helped me with the blog
to francesca still existing
to small nitty gritty stuffs i used to post about even for the smallest things that made me upset.
then to someone
and another one
and abi
and troubles that i face
it really was good to turn around for a moment and look back at the past.
little to know how childish, extremely childish i actually was.
not to say im not now.
but , after what everyone tells me.
i think i kinda miss my past.
the nothing-much-to-worry past.
it was simple.
at first.
still, that's life.
sometimes i really wish time would come to a hault.
for me to just stop and look around at the people that are around me now
and really appreciate them , in case i lose them.
be it temporarily or just permanently , like death.
like dad always say , time would never wait for us.
so why ponder?
everyone always says appreciate the people around us while we can.
who actually does that?
that's humans.
we dont appreciate.
bet im gna re-read this post again some time and really hate myself for being me now.
odd , but yeah.
im kinda tired of life actually.
who isnt.
O levels are like less than 50 days away.
gta mug gta mug.

was talking to olivia on msn just now.
i really missed her.
talked about band and stuff.
i really miss band.
i miss the concert in december.
it brings regrets that i didnt appreciate those moments.
just that moment at least.
bringing up that flugelhorn,
being able to play a repetoire of songs with the entire band.
and seniors too.
i think that was the best.
one of the best moments of my life.
too bad none of us actually appreciated it.
and speech day too.
i miss that too.
i miss sitting beside olivia during band.
cracking sarcastic jokes with her.
and just rattling on abt how hurt our lips were.
hate to say this, but i do miss the seniors 2 batches above us.
joel , dequan and the rest of the ppl.
life sucks when you're having fun , aye.
yep.
alright.
buh byee