accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.



hectic day today.
couple of happenings.
none just goes the way we want it to.

went for concert today.
bvss's.
nth bad to say.
proud of band , proud of oli.
yep.
went home with angeline .
it's been really long since i saw her.
yep.
miss her alott.

bye..


think abt hw this blog existed.
think abt..
thursday night,


have fun..

all siblings are evil.

hahaha.
was talking to huimei and she said that.
i wanted to say it wasnt true.
then sis took away my last biscuit.
):

yawn.
its 0111 and im awake,
not surprising.
but i really very stone
cant sleep
i want cloudyyy

anw, came back from chalet today.
i think chalet was great
cos it wasnt loaded with peeps.
neither were we lonely and stoning.

first day we were locked out.
i mean we checked in but were not allowed to go in.
oh nvrm.
when we got in , it was XBox , then monopoly
think that was it
with panda , sean, jx, kahfai, dawn , jinhao faiz and amanda

had barbeque yst.
i think it was fun
i think.
cos it rained
and stopped
then we started it
then it rained
then we stopped
then the rain stopped
then we start
but it couldnt

okay in conclusion , we barbequed with the help of shelter from umbrellas
so it was fun
i had fun toasting marshmallows too
me fav
hee

then panda and i went out to buy icecream,
we came back , i bathed.
and they barbequed again.
i doesnt like prawns.
e.v.i.l.
i swear, they were screaming at me when i buttered them
feel like crying.
gggggrrrr

went home today at like 3pm
tired but i stoned
couldnt sleep
stone till now.

okay bye

the long awaited scare is over.

finally over.

Remember man, as you walk by,
As you are now, so once was I.
As I am now, so shall you be.
Remember this and forget me.

The last few hours were undeniably unforgettable and hurtful sorrows.
Nontheless, the smiles on my face slowly sufficed as the hours went by

Why?

From the eager await to the eager await to get home and hide under those comfy quilts ,
where no one , no one would notice.
As i watched you having fun , the heart grew heavier and eventually sank as the harsh words ladened.
the truth hurts , you'd never understand.
no one would.
looking at those photos really broke my heart.
who was i to blame but myself.
i didnt try.
i didnt bother to try.
it happened at band camp
it happened during speech day
it happenes everytime
will you notice ?
maybe i should stay away, shouldnt wait.


take it as nothing happened , take it as i'll forget this.
take it as though i didnt exist yesterday.

The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you,
yet not so little as to let you live.

my life.


so , prom is over.

no masks for masquerade .
wasted my time doing up that mask.
dont even think anyone saw it.

spending the time smashing mirrors
getting myself stabbed
whatever.
i had fun with huijuan tho.




















job next.





bye

life aint perfect at the end of o lvls after all.
nothing's changed.
nothing.

somehow there's a tingly sense of guilt as i post.
its like , i need to study and im not.
i dont know.

earlier on ,
was just packing my room a lil cos the worksheets were everywhere.
sis yelled at me not to throw anything , she assumed i was about to.
think im gna retain huh.
thanks

second sis and dad are back.
finally.
missed them.
nutin much.
just went to the airport and send rosalind off
she's going to japan for a week.
lucky her.
waited for dad and sis for an hour.
felt like i waited at the standee for months or smth.
whatever.
anw, they bought like 3 kilos of nougats
for friends i guess.
sis bought like 7/8/9 pairs of shoes.
freak.
ai ya, they bought everything except my crumpets and spongebob hoodie.
which sucks..
nvrm.
doesnt matter much.

btw, i got rejected on my first job appeal.
at least that's what i think.
fml.
i feel tired and restless..
been slping 5 hours or less for the last few days and i feel that its enough.
think the effect's taking it on me now.
bet by the time i get to slp , dad will be awake.
hurray.
ha ha
redkewpqe12e2esqspls m


bye

darn it.


i feel like swearing at those carrots in the fridge.
they got aircon me no aircon.
not my point.

i feel like swearing, period.

first i screwed up history.
then i screw up SS.

oh, oh...
no sweat, its alright.
COS BOTH OF THEM ARE GONNA BE COMBINED AND IMA SCREW UP BIG TIME.
please say hi to me when you see me in white uniform next year.
please dont run.
cos i'll be on muh way to nursing.
AHH

okay, maybe nursing's not so bad after all.
good prospects.
hmm.
i dont mind.
on the brighter side, i can use hand-me-down texts from sis.
she can give me tuition too!
YEAHH.




i feel like crying.


whyy.
why me no study venice.
no use.
like a few days before SS exam,
i realised i dont even have sec4 tb.
haha.
funneh.
think i'll rmb the situation before SS exam for the rest of my life.
i've never felt so helpless in my life before.
NEVER.
the kind of ,'' ahaha , that topic confirm come out wan if not i chop my head off''
then it really didnt come out.
we're like OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO___________OOOOOOOOOOOO
):
and then me paula pokes and sean were talking abt the ppl who studied venice.
say if venice dont come out again we gna laugh.
and if D&D didnt come out, we would see should flip the tables .

prayed hard, looked at the cover , immediately flipped to SEQ.
wierd, how come nth seemed familiar.
maybe D&D was at the next page.
guess not.
omg.
i immediately cupped my ears for 1 minute.
haish.
then i looked at sean from behind.
the tables weren't flipped.
he seemed confident, maybe i got the wrong qn paper.
yeah right,
then i looked at parthiban.
he looked stressed.
okay , so im not the only one.
then i tot of pokes.
she said ,
''if D&D dont come out hor , we gg alr''
/:
fml.
think we were the only idiots who didnt study venice?
i hate myself .
now , to mentally prepare myself for nursing.
seeing mango pudding everyday.
...


sis and dad's coming back on saturday.
i cant wait.
miss them loads.
dad's barely gone for 2 weeks and they wanted to come home early.
very funny.
at least they're coming homme in similar flights.
crumpets ftw (:
heard that dad played with gay and some fat cat.
jealousss.
and now gay knows how to play dead.
which is good.
too bad i dont get to see them.
eesh.

i seriously dont want to cry on the day of the release of results.
i dont want to regret and stuff.
what's the point of saying now?
im only left with one paper.
i think ima bring mud on that day.
if my results suck i'll bury myself in it.
so no one will notice.
right.

okay bye.

S.M.I.L.E

stupid monkey idiot loser eeeediot.
wth

hoho
big word.

anyway.
i feel high.
dont feel like studying anymore cos
I SCREWED UP HISTORY.
OH MY LAWD I FEEL LIKE DYING.

wad to do wad to do.
stupid me, thought humanites paper was 1h45m
cos panda told me yst , you finish at 945am.
i happy la.
right.
he meant the collection of scripts inclusive.
i still stone.
then SBQ had to rush through last 2 qns.
cant believe i nearly couldnt finish.
usually during school exams i'd rush all the way,
then make 30 mins to slp.
(U@#U#@()U#@(##

gah.
sad.
anw... SS on monday and science paper 1 on thurs.
hee.
no more.
i wna flip the tables .
yeah right.

and i wna hug miss cheong.
that was if i get an A1.
she doesnt need that hug.
im not getting an A1 ):
*POUT.

sis and dad are away to NZ.
for backpacking.
wonder if dad's legs are giving way.
SNOWWW.
*slaps.
crumpets . heh

okay byebye.

fag.

i hate o levels.
still...



still i'd it would never end.
so i dont have to..
yeah.
whatever.

bye