Its okay joanne, we all have face backs in lifeee.

oh how i dred to say those words again..
oh well,
everyone's gotta grow up and put the past behind.
mature up xiyu, mature up.
tch.
just had dinner.
ouch.
stomach pain2 ah.
here's the thing.
woke up this morning.
jiashun stayed over with sis.
mom ANNOUNCED we were gna have turkey for dinner.
everyone : YAYYY!!
reasons :
1. mom like jiashun. O:
2. we havent had turkey in a while.
3. the oven needs to be used. cos its been 2387234 months since anyone used it.
put aside for the fact that 2 months ago sis and jiashun burnt those muffins.

okay.
i went out to meet panda today.
(:
went to westmall.
haha.
the usual.
ate icecreammmm O:::
first time in my life i didnt finish it.
so dissapointed in myself.
not..
wtever.
anyway, went back home andddddddddddd.
no more turkey at coldstorage.
sees table - two mini chickens.
AHAHHAAA.
tell you, the face of sis and jiashun's.
damn sad.
haha.
think they wanted to cry.
was still nice thoo.
haha.
later got earth hour (:::
jiashun they all say wna go mt faber.
cos can see all the lights off.
(:
i wanna goooooooooooooooooooooo.
D:
just talked to huivoon on msn and facebook.
for so longgg.
haha.
(:
school's been okay since it reopened.
was sick on thurs and didnt come.
):
speech day's coming.
gotta treasure every band prac now.
):
why's there a sad face after
every two sentences?
):
.
.
):

i want cotton candehhhh.

i.
love.
earth.
hour .
(:

i.
love.
panda.
too.
hahaa.

ok byee

When angels cry, will i stand by?

nah, think i'll be crying with them too..
gosh.
im exhausted.
march hols are gone,
*snap, chew, munch, grumble , sneeze.
just like that.
tch..
and to think its the last time ever to have a march hol before tertiary.
haHaHA.
been thinking alot recently.
due to some un/forseen circumstances.
and've been reporting to sch this hol practically everyday.
except friday.
teeeheh.
monday had minor intensive MT lessons.
of which speech day peeps get to leave early
and stupidly skip MT oral, to have it the next day.
nah uh, no diff...
monday's rehearsal was both indoor and outdoor.
mr hoe wasnt there for the indoor , thank lawd.
cos i saved my butt.
outdoor was hottttttttttttttt.
pirspire like hell, happily thinking i'd be tanned.
then, looked around and indeed, the others got tanned/ sunburned.
(including panda)
everyone except me ! ):
grrrr...
no fair.
tuesday had MT intensive, i mean it.
haha.
woke up at 8 or so?
when it started at 740am.
whoopps.
haha.
barely got my bottom warm when i arrived, then had break alr.
haha.
survived the remaining time with panda and hello panda biscuits.
i dont think we were paying attention.
haha.
then had MT oral.
the teacher screws.
im not kidding.
she's a monster.
hmphh.
CONFIDENCEE.
funny bunny !#(#@(#@&*#!
ima fraudd..
then rushed home and met with panda.
then went to JE lib to meet up with joanne and subra.
did work.
*cough.
then went to city hall cum suntec cum esplanade.
and had great time there.
reached home and got thrashed, verbally.
wed had band.
boringgggg.
mr hoe didnt come.
band ended earlier than usual.
hoohoo.
oh yes oh yes.
had remedial in the morning.
amath.
i read my schedule wrongly .
%$@^#@
amath was at 1030.
i saw it as 0830.
felt contented that i reached sch at 9.
-.-
lawd noes wad happened.
zzz
after band
spent time with panda, then went home.
thurs had band exchange with huayi sec
was kinda embarassment
haha
overall was okayy
friday supposed to have phy rem.
supposed...
assume i dont noe.
so nv go
heh
went out with panda instead
and reached home at 10 plus.
hahaa.
today follow panda for guitar lessons.
with new stacie.
stacie B.C (before christ)
hahaha
was funn.
(:
thatss alll.............
buh byee

Cry me a river .
Where's the bucket?

Y'know, sometimes i just hate myself for being me.

school's been pretty busy.
and yeah, whoops about this blog uh.
WHOOOPS.
one word. hectic.
lotsa stuff happened.
adam khoo workshop , class cheer and stuff...
that workshop was okay.
partly regretful. more or less emotional.
butt hurt from sitting. jaaw tired from munching ( i think)
eyes sore from the lack of sleep .
i dont know what else.
hmm..
for the last day, me and joanne had this ego thing.
of which i wished i didnt have it.
i really wished i could turn back time the moment i got home.
looking at my hand on the ego thing...
man.. i waas really stupid.
too bad uh. what's done is done.
so... xiyu, next time use your gawd damn brain to think before you do anything.
its not an empty shell.
tchh.. why am i writing to myself.
tchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
class cheer was soso.
spent the weekends with the class practicing under some HDB.
which turned out okay.
no conflicts i would say.
ended up getting 3rd,
of which we were fortunate enough to get so.
kinda screwed up and XH got ms tham to have our vid taken.
'' eh, who's the idiot stone there when everyone else jumped ???''
duh, who else.
yours truly.
-.-
i didnt actually realised.
wt
ok. so...
speech day's coming.
like band's kinda screwed.
cos we need to perform thrice.
once for parade.
then go up to hall to play one darn song.
i think im gonna cry, trust me.
D:
then go down to canteen to play.
dont think anyone will give a damn abt us anw.
._o
haiyerrrr.
that's gna be the last day of band for us.
so fasttt.
holiday start alr.
yeah right.
its like the usual time everyday.
and there's an exchange with huayi sec on thurs.
gna miss the egyptian museum trip with art peeps.
sorry joanne ):

hmm... went out with panda today.
it was fun (::
R.I.P stacie.
you're gna be okay,
panda dont sad alr ):::

i love you pandaa

i feel wierd after the workshop.
the guilt , resentment.
whatnot.
finally realised how unreasonable and extremely un-understanding i've been.
throwing tantrums, the attitude.
being quick tempered, hot tempered.
being selfish . being such a bitch at times.
and im sorry. im upset .























xiyu shall be mature.