All good things come to an end.
But it ends in a bad way.
WHY.

shit life.
never f**king gna touch coffee again.

whatever i do, no matter how much it took.you were always the right one no matter what.and im the wrong.you're better.mr. nice guy.ima piece of shit.im beginning to ponder again, if i was the right one for you. well , maybe im not. you prolly find another , better one. who'd fit in the crowd. instead of one that hide within the crowd like a fucking coward. yep, that's me .


nothing good to blabber.
bye.

wish you'd understand how i felt.
really wish you would.
so hating myself.


ima forsaken piece of shit,
someone shoot me.

It really shows.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.


Screw the fool who created the damn song.
urgh.

down , down.





gone.

(:::

Undesired , redundant , unsought .

What then?

in a nicer term i guess , extra-atmostpherical?

Speech day's finally over.

its a relief.

but not exactly happy about it.

i just dont feel like im ready, or its time to step down.

what to do anw.

speech day was okay.

reported to band store , took pics.
went to PSR to practice alot.

played latin favourites for the last time.

gosh, i wna play it again

the bad thing was, it rained.

i think the parade contingent ppl will wna cry.

but i was kinda happy,

i think if we did have a parade, i'll die.

although , all the efforts of parade rehearsal's gone to waste.

but, its still a relief

then went back to PSR and took a couple of pics.

then went to hall for the performance.

i swear, those peeps in the crowd scared the crap outta me.

then i spotted joanne.

can see her teeth uh , then i laughed.

gosh.

got it over and done with, for the last time.

took picture with mr hoe also.

then rested in PSR again and went down for the reception performance.

i think only we were enjoying ourselves.

no one even bothered to listen to us or clap, except for the last song

we didnt get to play latin favourites.

D:

went back to bandstore, yuai and jaron came.

went down to yeah.... take pics and went off.

went off with panda, ate and went to take pics and spend time tgt.

then went home at 1145.

yesterday...

went to meet panda in the morning for his guitar lessons.

then went to eat, and went to esplanade.

then he went back.

met up with joanne at clementi and wasted time there.

yawnnn.

haha.

stayed at mos burger and talkedd.

bought a drink.

finished the drink and was scared we'll get chased out.

so bought soup

bleah.

minestrone.

walked rounds and rounds and waited for abigail.

to go to my place for amanda's birthday party.

then we bused there.

and met up with amanda sean nasri and went up to her house

uhh, her cats damn cuteeeeeeee.

then brought the stuff down and they stayed there.

i went home for an hour.

bathed , then came down.

slacked around all the way till 1140 or so.

somehow i jumped in the pool.

felt good.

going to columbarium for grandma's later.

her anni's this wednesday.

its been 2 years mama..

MANUMIT.
somehow do not want this weekend to be over.
somehow i do.
i miss you panda.

anw, i think im screwed for art.

gosh.

okay, done with this..

everything's gna be alright, right?

for you, me and them.

i hope.

oh.
that's about it.


i should just lay low..

right?

Difference.

had speech day full dress rehearsal.
tired...
anyway, bye.




doesnt feel the same...