k today's like one of my worst days of my life.

seriously.

hate it when u crash my hopes.
i've had enough of it.
enough of the torture u inject to me.
this shall be it.
i shall make my stand.
i will not let u step over me ,
and make use of me.
it seems as though u care, i dont know.
but it really hurts alot.
too much for me to bear .
i hate this, i hate everything.
i wish everything would end , but i cant let go.
i can no longer live without you i must say.
what about you?
will u ever feel the same way, too?
will u even notice if im missing from your picture?
or are the colours already there, even when im not with you.

on friday, u made me feel like a princess.
u listened to me, and told me .
i felt it, not today, not anymore.
i realised it was a big mistake,
and i truly like to take back every single thing i've said to you that day.
i feel so stupid.
i feel like im so desperate.
i've been stupid , at least.
i'll not repeat it.
i feel so tired of trying.
still, there's the other part of the story from you.
true enough, i do feel guilty.
but feel broken, at the same time.
and miss you as well.

ireallyhatethispoint.



there isnt even a point.

fuckmylife.