oh . my. gawd.

his head shines.

hmm.

bright guy.

k so,

saturday was his birthday.

and on friday,

we decided to celebrate with his friends.

yep, sean jx tw han and tan

i dont have the pics , so yeah.

sorry

eww.

i mean han.

whoops.

haha, kidding.

da's favourite umm.

prawn wanton

-.-

its french ravioli actually.

jokes aside.

not really feeling too well today.

and yst

and yst yst.

was with da at msia with sean tw and jx

and his friends.

and now ive got stomach flu.

life really sucks.

when smth goes wrong,

everything goes wrong.

does that make sense?

i cant think damn it.

i didnt even sleep a wink last night cos it felt so freakin uncomfortable and i kept waking up to barf.

i barf-ed like 9 or 10 times today.

and my dad made forced me to go to sch cos he thought i was lazy.

reverse pshychology thingy.

like, ''its ok, nvrm wan. u dont go to school not my problem alr''

im like FOOOOOOOO

so i just got out of bed , showered and left the frikkin house.

couldnt even concentrate during lessons

and some irritating guy kept disturbing.

plus, the first lesson was marine engineering module and we had to walk around.

my face was literally O_O

i swear i felt so dizzy i could die.

lessons were from like 8 till 530pm.

and i went home to bathe and everything and came back to school for band.

and ive got ulcer from puking.

like, the bottom of my lips.

so when i played the instru , my lips hurt like hell.

oh and yeah, i had my first band practice today.

its like.......

i dno what to say.

just wna say i miss BVMB, alot.

like 1 1st, 1 2nd , 1 3rd trumpet.

so nice.

and then at SP there were like 25 trumpeters.

i couldnt even hear myself, and eventually gave up a lil.

like just fingered the notes and stuff.

gta adapt.

k i feel like crap now.

cant my day be any better.

ok wait, the day's over.

i promised him not to say fml anymore.

so yeah.

URGH.

i feel like crying.

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things feel so different right now.

as if everything's changed.

i've planned it for months ,

and the day finally came.

it just passed like that, with no memories whatsover.

i dont even think you were moved.

u forgot everything that happened .

i feel so estranged from you.

your friend was right, you live in your own world.

far different from mine.

why did i even bother trying.

why.

i love you han.