09/03/09

this was one of the first times i smiled to the cam.
hmm..
miss having sectionals.
''sectionals''
rmb we'd go to the fitness corner.
or i'd hide in the horn cupboard and emo.
im dumb.

anw, smth's been troubling me recently.
i have no idea what's going on.
or why it's happening.
i nvr thought it would.
its so surreal and untrue and everything
but that's the fact.
i dont know how to face up to it, or what im going to do in the future.
there's no turning back, and if i just forget about everything that's happened,
it wont be fair to you.
plus, i dont think i can forget.
what exactly am i doing??
it's only been 3 weeks.
and everything's changed so much
i darent tell anyone.
cos im afraid.






anw, dad bought an iphone.
like when no one wants to buy it anymore cos the new one's coming out.
and he was like... my phone spoil.
thats cos he didnt know how to unlock it.
haha, its damn cute.
but im not saying anything
cos i need him to teach me ship operations stuff.
hmm, okay holidays alr.
i think today is the only day that i can sleep late, and slack
and study abit.
other days are really packed, and idk what to do alr.
im like back to working at GJ for the next 2 weeks.
with band after that.
and band camp
and smth else.
and exams are after hols?
wth.
no fair.
i prefer sec sch.
okok.
stop living in the past.
im dumb.
okay so anw, so many other things going on in my mind.


k bye.


we both know that its wrong.