and then,

i was dumbfounded for a moment.
realised it wasnt gna be the same .
ever.
just felt like everything's crashed again.
y'know? like, a sandcastle.
we'd build a nice one together , once.
i have no idea was it either u walked away,
or the waves-of-reality came and swept everything.
and i built it alone once again.
and the waves came again.
this time, there's no one like u to comfort me anymore.
cos im alone.

okay comparing me with a small girl building sandcastles is stupid.
but i feel like it.
please concentrate , me.
please dont screw up tmr
and the day after and after and after after and afterafterafter.
i've been stupid.
guess what?
i still am.
i dont want to face my fears.
hiding from reality is not what i do.
i want the old times back.
too bad huh.
so what if i had a bad feeling.
stupid me.
so what.
i shouldnt have.


fml.




i think this time,
i've given up on all hopes.