but im not, really..
im sorry.


softly sighs the rainbow,
misty songs of old.
flowing by the skyline,
my secret lullaby.

softly sighs the rainbow,
stories seldom told.
flowing by the skyline,
my love songs never rhyme.

I stand alone below,
lingering through my secret rainbow.
my secret rainbow.


wished stuff like this would end.
really.

what's ahead?

:(
huijuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannn.

rotting at home nao.
i loike.
i dont wna go to sch.
i hate school omg.
wna run away far far away and die.
anw...






haha!
omg, this is so funny.
rmb this huijuan?
i feel so innocent again.
this was the first time me and huijuan quarrelled in sec1.
rmb it was cca awareness day or smth cos BVMB got silver.
and i forgot why. huijuan angry with me :(
i rmb calling her effed up.
then when i go home i did this.
and sent it to her. omg.
ahhh~ i miss my huijuan :(
my white white huijuan :(
she's the only one that accompanied me throughout sec sch life.
since sec1.
rmb she was 20 cm taller than me in sec1.
and i thought i could reach her height -.-
yeah.
im halfway there hor!
and im taller than rosalind now!
she was like OMG, u're still growing -.-
and im taller than older sis!
ok i think they're shrinking tho.
looked through past blog posts since sec1.
realised how hot-tempered and extremely vulgar i was.
so embarassing.
every post has the eff word, or scolding someone stupid in it.
haha, k.
presentation tmr?
like nervous ttm.
i got stage fright, even at band.



would everything be the same like it used to be?
and will everything remain the way it is, forever.
i never want it to end, never.
i need you.

NO YOU'RE NOT IN THE WRONG BLOG WOMAN.
i changed the skin, like after 2 years?
i didnt want to..
just accidentally destroyed the template
and cant find it back.
meant to be. forget it.
it was simple, and still is simple.
fml.


All fingers are pointed at me, including yours.
how do i feel believed in?
Afraid about the slightest mistake i'll ever commit again.
This wasnt what i thought i was in for,
at least know what i was in for.
no one know's what going on in my life, except myself.
& when you mess up with one other person's life, unintentionally
you realise you're not just messing with that part of his life
it's not about being precise or selective
everything, affects everything.
im really sorry,
sorry to everyone.


string of unfortunate events, continuously i must say.
nothing seems to be going right.
still, got to meet up with rosalind today.
after 1 month,
miss her so damn much.
thank god for her , really.
got to talk to her and everything.
we walked from BB all the way to IMM.
awesome times we used to have.
like walking home everyday after going to her house to hangout.
and we'd love walking long distances and listen to music.
step emo oni. haha
ah well~ with bus concession who needs the damn breeze.
oh and we bought a BFF ring .
how pri sch can we get,
still.. can feel the sweet memories we had in pri sch.
falling off grass and arcade and all the nonsense.
well the nonsense has never changed since. really.
k so, i feel better.
i think.
oh and realised all JPOP symphonic suites sound the same.
sound like hokkien songs ..


wish i'd give up on both sides
i just hope everything gets better.
you've said i changed and everything.
idk.


true strength , is to hold it in, even when everyone knows you're falling apart.
i dont possess that quality you see..
that impulse to stretch out to someone whom doesnt belong to you.

that's stupidity.
and thats the quality i possess.

wish everything, EVERYTHING
could iron out itself...


which includes my clothes.




bladdy.
i wna go back to MELcamp i swear.
i swear upon my heart and my life.
i wna go back there.
):
i feel like crying so bad.


its just so urgghhh.
everything's so urghh.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

661th post.

roting at home.
its my passion.
i loike -.-


okay really.
i like home ):

i want my skull canddy backk.
):
i know its been months since its spoilt.
rmb how da got so angry when i spoilt it.
he ended up forgetting about it when we made a deal we'd claim the warranty.
and gave me his apple earpiece.
lazy boy.
hahaha.
but this time im gna get it back myself.
its not my fault there was a defect.
): dad calls me destroyer.
so much so when we went to HK ,
saw the beats by dr.dre monster earphones.
and that was the only thing i wanted soooo badly for the entiretrip.
he said no -.-
he said if i were to spoil that,
he will nvr ever give me my allowance for life.
wth.. haha
cos i spoil everything at home.
and this is like my 7th earpiece?
either i spoilt it, broke it, gave it away, lost it ,
and spoil it most of the time.
skull candy here i comeee.

Baby you know,
that you are the air that i breathe
life that's in me, ohh
baby you know, that you are all that i need
you give me everything,

Each time i see you, my heart starts to pound
whenever you come around.

cos you are all i need.



okay yeah,
no school tmr YESSAAHH.
ok so anw, i cant sleep.
i cant friggin slp.
and i couldnt slp last night.
cos yst i drank a venti dark mocha from starbucks
and i felt like i went for a buffet.
omg.
oh yeah, i forgot to tell.
i can take espresso now.
so proud of myself.
:D
but i couldnt sleep last night.
thats for acting smart.

school's stupid.
all the projects and everything coming.
and exams and everything.
nvrm, holidaysss coming too.
havent even got a chance to meet up with da properly.
this sucks.
i miss the times at bukit view.
haha the stupid old me.
rmb when we used to have diff recesses and i'll be sad and everything.
compared to now, we havent got to meet up properly in like 3 weeks?
idk man..

okay , so anw had band today.
this american professor came to SPSB.
he was damn awesome, and funny.
and well, he touched on american elegy and stuff.
and for the whole practice , i only played that song.
cos me and minghui wasnt playing for the other 2 songs.
and we were basically rotting.
its damn funny,
cos im playing 3rd in AE.
and weizheng was like falling asleep.
we had to wait damn for our part.
like 50 bars.
and yeah, when he finally woke up our part was over.
then he like, uh?
realised there's 5 more practices left.
i just saw the board yst.
thought someone was joking or wad.
its really true O__O
and im not turning up for this fri's sectional.
naise life.



part of life uh, part of life.
right anot?
just want the best for you, that's all..

OKAY!
DAD' S COMING BACK TMR :D
miss him loads i swear.

beware, long post ahead.
cos this was the best day ever.
well, the best night in my life was the previous night b4 this.
and this was the best day in MELcamp.
(:

DAY 3!
12/07/11

we arrived in phuket the moment we woke up.
and well.. the only day we didnt overslept :D
hahas.
cos we were leaving for phuket, duh!
haha
to supposedly go shopping and everything.
end up buying like food, eating
and altogether umm, a watch strap?!
yeah. thats all.
no fake stuff, no nothin. hahas
i so badly wanted to braid my hair.
but it was ex ah.
brought only 50 sing bucks
soo....

big big big cruise!
okay la, after a few days of exploring,
we more or less knew the entire place.
it was OUR world, esp at night :D
the 13th floor, rmb? hahas



COFFFEEEHHH (Y)

arrived at some wierd scenic and awesomely windy place.

which was not good, at all.

cos i happened to be wearing a skirt.

the wind hates me.

except for the night b4.

hahas

this is the DMB 1A 01/02 group that went for MELcamp.

biyu and darrynnn

in the bus..

someone turned crazy.

hahaha
you see.. we went shopping.

right,

to find polaroid refills.

seems like thailand peeps dont use polaroids.

so , all efforts went in vain.

and yeah,

he was ...

maybe a lil upset.

kitty kitty kittyyyy.

k so we were hungry ,

and it was 12 noon, our time.

and all shops and everything opened at 12 noon, their time.

which was 11am at that time.

practically nth was opened.

except swensens...

and we were oh yayyyy! lets eattt.

it was swensen's ice cream.

omg, i swear i felt like puking after breaking the

3-icecreams-in-a-day record. really.

walked walked walked..

and found a nice and random place (:

the food wasnt nice..

but that's the place where i tried my first cocktail.

if da sees this he'll strangle me to death .
but...

ta-daaaaa magaritta!

it was biyu's

okay then we went back onboard,

and got ready for galanight.

lemme show u!

omg han, be very proud of meeee.

my first eye candy nehhhh.

this russian dudeee.

heehee. cos russians, koreans, chinese and japanese joined us for melcamp.

most importantly the russians er-hm,

they were so tall and...

everything. k they were so tall . haha this is the guy.

i took this.

and everytime he walked past us i'll tug biyu or darryn and like..

eheh! i swear he looked at me.

hahaha. k la, im kidding about all these..

just finding smth to joke about

k boreddd.

and it was darn shakey.

think they were going at fullspeed back to spore

and yeah, quite a number of ppl got sick.

well.. the 3 of us remained alive.

appetiser

whoops, this is suppose to be the last one.

dessert

darryn's appetiser, sickkk salmon.

and yes this.

i will remember this FOREVER.

the stupid stuffed chicken.

well, it was damn good. really.

but yeah,

me: omggggg, its stuffed inside. so niceee ^^

biyu and darryn looks

*silence*
-2 mins later-

biyu: eh! na ge ji li mian you dong xi de !

me: wth. i hate my life ah. no one ever listens ):

both of them laughs

*darryn starts on chicken*

-5 mins later-

darryn: huh ? the chicken inside got things wan. so cool. hahaha.

()*)@#*)(#@)@#@@

i nearly cried, really.

this is damn sad.

my sad life.

no one ever listens to me.

and i'll be like, i just said that 5 mins ago.

damn it.

i shouldnt be alive.


k then darryn walked into the casino,

lika boss.

and i stared outside.

too chicken to go in,

think i'll give myself away ah.

haha

SPIDER PIG~SPIDER PIG.

DOES WHATEVER, SPIDER PIG DOES.

weeee.

no pictures to elaborate about the night.

a polaroid tho (:

hmm, a picture speaks a thousand words.

and memories remain forever.

well, what do i have to say.

time wouldnt turn back just for me.

just hope, things like these would nvr end.

and shit happens would never happen.

so thankful for being part of the trip.

and so thankful for both of them to have been part of my life for that 4 days.

1 more dayy.

its not up tho.

hahas.

k bye (:

omg i blog about melcamp only,
got to mention my sis came back on friday !
she bought nth for me except crumpets.
love her still . (:
xoxo.



MEL CAMP DAY 2!

i slept on the top bunk of the double-decker bed.
which i loike.
this is the room view of biyu and mine.

andd... this is the view of darryn's cabin



he says its awesome-er.
jealous only.. hahaha
so thankful we swapped rooms ,
and i wasnt sleeping alone.
ok not i like i was sleeping with biyu.
i mean like.. i had company .
haha
okay soo..
yeah we skipped the workshop the previous night.
and accidentally skipped supper that the both of them were hungry.
at like 2 plus?
so we ate high-class supper.
really, im not kidding.
i had high end icecream.
at 2am.
that's the day i broke my record of 2 mac icecreams.
after eating,
went back to cabin for a while and wasnt feeling tired.
so we went to hang around at the top deck ,
which we did for the that 3 consecutive nights.
those were the best part of the entire trip.
which it never ended..

i think when we woke up,

we reached penang alr.

cool rightt.

omg and i was damn facinated, and eager to get off.

but heard that no one from the MELcamp was getting off.

cos there was a workshop..

so . heeheehee.

yeah,

PERVERT (ii)

at the same nikita thingy

sick bird.

ice cream (ii)

well... it was break..

and we were dying to get off , and everyone seemed to be gone.

and we wanted to get snacks.

soooo....

LE 30 MINUTE ESCAPE.

PENANG!

well okay ah,

no shopping place or smth.

at least not within our walking range..

only snacks . hahaha

i love mom.

she gave me ringit.

like she knew i'd escape or smth.

she gave me a hundred bucks.

so we were literally finding a shop to spam all the snacks.

and there was only one shop.

bet the woman was like O___O

haha biyu took 15 bubble gums.

went we went on board i ate 5 at once.

nearly died i swear.
mm, took like chips and drinks and biscuits and everything.

and 2 lollipops just for the both of us (:

i liked it.

haha

._.

That 30 minute adventure was super duper fun.

which involves us jay-walking and nearly getting killed.

but it was darn exciting.

like no one ever escaped and skipped workshops like we did.

felt kinda guilty.

bt we still had awesome funnnnn.

k back on board.

introducing the hot bread man.
gta thank him for the great bread we had on board.

and yeah, darryn wanted room service from him.

like... yeah.

to partly deliver bread, and partly...

nvrm . hahaha

seee, he lean over to my bread man.

jealous ttm.

idk why , we went back to the same chinese restaurant for dinner again.

and they go a whole fish , again.

amazing.

i had corn soup woohoo!

the best corn soup evaaaa.

nicer than my mom's.

whoops.

decided to spam corn soup for dinner.

without chopsticks.

weee.

the outcome of too much corn soup
haha okay kidding..

biyu's eyes.
._.

no nikita for him.
poor boi

ohya and i had my icecream (iii)

i broke my record. officially.

damn it, i missed the picture. nvrm. haha

this is the swimming pool area.

well, that very night there were countless of memories.
okay, so that very night they were on full speed toward phuket.

and i was guessing the weather wasnt very good.

no stars etc.

*hits head* hahaha :p

the wind was freakkkkinggg strong i swear.

the strongest wind i've experienced in my pathetic 16 years and 10 months.

we were like staring at this metal chair.

and it was like moving and moving my itself.

quite creepy

then we took the stairs up and when we looked down,

it was alr blown over.

thats how strong it was

i miss the jumping part the most.

hahaha.

that very afternoon we were like playing a fool.

cos it was breezy,just breezy.

then we jumped , to ''fly''

and that night when we jumped, i fell over.

hahahaha.

too strong.

damn cool.

miss it alot ):

well, it was the best night ever in my life.

thats what i think, really..

nothing ever like that has ever happened before.
and we hanged out till like.. 5 plus?

when i finally went to sleep the sun came out.

then after awhile biyu woke me up.

say we reach phuket alr

alright, thats all for day 2.

hope biyu uploads day 3&4 ah.

(:

k bye.

xxxxxxxxx

hogger stealing my bedd >:(

Finally!

omg, that nostalgic feeling running through my veins .

okay, pictures below are from MELcamp

best camp ever, in my life.

i've never enjoyed so much in my life
and felt like never ever coming back to reality.

was really indeed upset when we were back at spore again.

but yeah, reality ah.

still, i think i'll remember this for the rest of my life till i die, really.

so, it was from 10th-13th july.

its been like, exactly 2 weeks alr.
sorry for the delay..

alright, this is only day 1 .

more tmr dont worry :)

weee look!

that was friggin big omg
and i rmb the sun was gna set at that time

before we left spore.

that's biyu (:

PERVERT.

hahaha

santa! omg.

plus, he was wearing red.

and when he caught me taking a pic of him he posed for the cam.

santa's so nice.

should have tld him what presents i wanted.

didnt cross my mind ah, darn it.

cry baby.

havent had rice in 2 years, aye?

my bed my bed!

cabinnnn

ee vain pot.

i love this place of all the places in the entire cruise, somehow.

wanted to lie down and take a pic,

but they said it was dirty.

:(

umm, chinese dinner with chopsticks.

CHOPSTICKS.

rmb we had fun there.

cos the both of them had to share the entire fish.

awkward ttm cos they both felt like my parents.

haha and biyu started calling darryn mom.

we were like O.O

mountain tortoise.

nvr see cable car b4.

hee


before we left..

sum ting wong.

i was kneeling ah, im not bluffing.

this is the real height

think this was the only lecture we went to?

we skipped the rest :}

the not so huge chess board.

from the top we thought it was like the harry potter chess size thingy.

-.-

okay yap, thats all for day1.

at least thats all for now.
im so friggin tired

bloggie giving me problems

all the photos are jumbled up anw

:(

okay tireddddd.

ah so late alr.k bye.

<3 u .

k bye.