sorry.
i went to the album i always go to,
close my eyes, and double-click on it randomly.
that explains it now.
i feel exactly like this.


its been 2 months.
2 months.
why didnt you even say your goodbyes?
and yet, im not over it.

someone told me,
dont bear grudges, learn to let go.
the point is, im not even bearing the grudge.
its not about hatred.
its different.
that feeling.
indescribable feeling.


i dreamt of you last night,
and woke up crying.
didnt even sleep for the rest of the night.
kept crying and crying.
for what. im so stupid.
and i had to get up at 6am, what a bother.
so friggin sleepy.
nw i feel awake, idk why.
just took sleeping pills.
they dont seem to work on me anw.

i knew i shld have watched the ducks being blown away and go back to slp.

k bye.

i. miss . everything.