From strangers to friends ,
to closer friends, best friends.
something happened in between.
and then strangers.
right now you're sitting just behind me.
and it feels like i've never met you before through these 6 months.

midnight may 2011, 1203am.,
i randomly talked to you on the usual chat web
not realising it was your birthday.
everything feels like a dream.
we had common topics.
and could mostly talk about everything.
it felt like you were the only person i could talk to ,
and share my problems with.


mid june 2011, midnight.
we met up, chatted so long for the first time.
i felt so much trust in you .


end of june 2011,
we stopped talking altogether.
i dont know what happened.
no idea.


midnight , july 12th 2011.
something happened between us that would change everything
made me feel so happy, yet i knew everything would be gone in an instant.
if only time would stop then.
just then.


august , 2011.
im in deep shit.
you promised nothing would happen,
however leaving without an explaination.
i thought you were heartless.
nevertheless each time we start having little chats over again,
i feel that guilt and shame of having to think you're such a person.
yet time and time again you left.
each time i see you,
i either run or hide away from you.
hoping you'll never see the ugly side of me.


october 2011,
its been 2 months.
holidays past, still nothing.
i'd still think of you everynight , before i sleep.
wondering what exactly happened.
and why i'd never fail to be so attached to you everytime.
isit just me?
and one day, you just told me to keep myself busy.
so i'd prolly forget about everything.

i think, its time to have a good laugh now.
or maybe not.
i feel worse than before, worse than ever.
what could destroy me more?
they say time heals everything.
times heals nothing for me.
it just makes it worse.


you promised we'd stay the same forever.
and i promised not ever ignoring you.
so here's me breaking mine, friend.


i guess we're not even fit to be just friends huh.

whatever man.
i feel like steel.
waste steel..
you promised.