my gosh.
melanie amaro's real amazing.
you listen to her sing like can cry.
okay , i mean I.



i feel so stupid .
anw, not much today.
just slack at home.
a lil procrastination and snacking.
im really getting F_T.


haha whatever.


oh anw,
sisters bought me a new bagpack.
stone colour.
awesome.
love them much (:
but they're like crap now.
cos both of them quarrel.
i wanted to thank both of them at the same time.
they both gave me THE look.
so umm, forget it man.


havent touched benny for like a month.
more than that.
every since i stopped talking to you,
i just kinda didnt feel like touching him alr.
yeah. keep myself occupied huh?
i wish i could.
if it was so easy, nothing would have happened months ago.
nth would have happened on the 13th of july.
nothing would ever ever happen.
does that occur to you, or ring a bell?
ding. (k shitz i wasnt kidding)
feel like im in such a deep shit.
no, i actually FEEL like shit.
not literally.
sharing stuff with other wouldnt even be right.
no one would understand like you did.
given a choice, i'd still chose the same path.
not regreting ever meeting you, or talking to you on msn
and sharing our problems together.
its really a drastic change.
after 2.5 months and i still cant adapt to this,
can you believe it?
i dont know.
i can just see myself in a month or so down the road.
and it'll be MST, and i'll just be in the same state. again.
running or hiding from the both of you like some dog that doesnt deserve to live.
sometimes i feel an impulse to sms you or smth.
at times i really do, and regret it after.
i have no intention to do any harm,
in the first place. and you understand that.
understood.
and to think i still cry once every fortnight for you.
what am i doing?


please xiyu, just get on with your freaking life.
stupid sensitive girl stupid.
think about the sorrow.