my heart and my mind,
definately did not connect.


the first time in i have no idea how long
that i've had eye contact with you.
so badly wanted to at least say hi.
but there was this natural reaction.
what if that someone was behind you.
and like in an instant reaction my mind just said, RUN.
as usual.
i really did.
but that instant was captured in my head.
i can almost feel it now.
its the same as the other times when we used to hangout.
everything feels captured.
the shirt you wore, the stuff you were holding.
everything.



i dont know why.
really feel exhausted
tired of school and everything.
i feel so thankful that school's out for me tmr.
i feel so relieved.
sigh..
if only things werent so difficult.



bye