finally got to log in after 20 mins.
cos i realised i typed the wrong email acc.
how smart.



these few days were not good.
not good at all.
includes today tho.
i hate it so much when you cry yourself to slp so badly.
and when you wake up the next day ,
you hardly rmb what even occurerd.
next thing you know ,
the emptiness sinks in.
i know right.
thank lawd i dont have work today.
or i'll be draggin my arse all the way to vivo, i swear.

CNY this week.
pretty fast huh..
last year we were all like, best wishes for O lvl and stuff.
ah , whatever.


when will you ever be here, when i need you.

OLI!!!

haha, and joel .

when we met up for lunch plus jaron .

like one kind.

hmm, was after np open house.


HAN. duh.

i swear she nearly broke my hammock.

haha , kiddin

day before christmas eve.

okay yep, that's all i have to share.

just realised my blog is very very very empty.

is like, u see white space and orange headings.

with black ants everywhere.

jeez.

last weekend, panda's parents came to spore.

stayed over with them for a night.

it was alright, not so bad afterall .

and yep, i had fun.

and im not scared of his dad's laugh anymore.

the kinda laugh that u hear in horror movies

and me and oli used to laugh at jaron cos he tried to imitate that kinda thing

and he failed and got chocked.

yep, that one.

oh yes, and i do respond to fish now.

i mean , if like ppl call out fish , i'd stone.

but yeah, i respond now.

ikan baka des.

okay..

uh, yeah.

on sat, job agency woke me up.

c'mon man, it was a saturday morning.

urgh.

okay kill me , cos i woke everyone else around me up.

they offered a one day job on traffic surverying thing.

and yes.

i called pokes, jess, amanda, jx, sean, khoirul , han and paula

i think thats all.

only pokes picked up.

haha.

good pokes.

so on monday , wokr up at like 5am.

met up with manda, and went to lakeside.

stoned there.

and well, with jess paula pokes.

jess was my partnerrrrr.

hahaha, so romantic.

seriously, we sat at the busstop,

clickclickclick , stoned , and talk.

then end alr.

went jess house and we slpt.

okay i slept the longest.

i knocked out okay.

so tired.

i slept with amanda .. heeehee.

okay nt really.

and i pulled her hair , according to her.

whoops.

used comp , went to KFC for close to 3 hours.

went back to the house and watched grown ups.

my 3rd time, so it didnt seemed as funny.

jeez.

haha.

went back to lakeside at 5pm.

did the same thing.

me , jess, and the clickclick.

this time was 2 hours.

the alarm ringed every 15 mins.

haha cool.

then it rained.

we were like LOLOL, we gotss shelterr.

haha whatever.

went back home with amanda .

haha, duh.

yst , went for the f&b course with rosalind.

we were late and its really awkward.

i nearly fell asleep.

ok i did,

so she bought me chocolate at 10am.

then i became abit high.

sugars worn off.

sleepy again.

she practically stuffed the whole bar of mentos in my mouth

one at a time ah.

and yeah, had exam after that.

i was the first one to pass!

haha.

that was like 350.

it was supposed to end at 6

my attention span is like that.

freak.

haha

went back with rosalind.

panda didnt call, so i went home.

at like 7 plus , met up with him , tw and sean.

then went to eat with panda and sean at KFC and went back to my place.

met up with amanda. then jx, then tw.

we watched movies for the whole night , again.

this is the second time.

haha.

watched inception ( freakin boring ) , chuck and larry , and mr woodcock i think.

then i fell asleep alr. i dont know abt the rest.

woken up by amanda at like 630am.

cos she got her results and was screaming.

at like 7 plus, i got mine..

Im in maritime business at SP.

that's like my 12th choice , out of my 12 choices.

thanks, i know right.

so lucky.

hmph.

kinda upset. but i dont know why i couldnt express it.

told mom , mom told dad, mom told sis. dad called, dad scolded, dad oh-ed.

k , when mom told him , he tot it was marine engineering.

his job kinda thing, off shore and blah.

he like NONONONONONONO. u appeal. it sucks.

then im like TT

then he came home at like 9 plus am.

just before the guys left my house.

then he like chey... ok la , nt bad.

its nt bad..

its really bad.

urgh.

my life.

i dont noe, but im not appealing.

its always appeal appeal and appeal.

hate false hopes.

DPA, JPSAE, now this.

nt gna bother trying.

anw han, i noe you're stalking me.

she got into her tp course, some culinery thing right.

via JPSAE.

congrats (:

proud of her mannn.

okay ,

big stuffs comin up in my life i guess..

iono .

dad should be retiring in less than a month.

dude, stop picturing him as some old guy with white hair.

that's what everyone tells me .

like , HUUUUUUUUUH?! HE SO OLD MEH.

shuddup.

he's 50.

change of career ah.

but he like emotional sey.

he'll be like, i work in this line for 28 years yadayada.

and im like, okok fine, i listen i listen.

holy~

prolly going on a holiday .

at least 2 weeks idc.

the one month bagpacking thing got crashed man.

cos sis says im an imbecile.

and imbeciles dont bagpack cos they're 16.

c'mon , im 17.

ok not really.

but yeah.

and she posted my pic on fb.

she watch out.

her childhood more screwed can.

hehheh.

okayy. enough.

taking the week off work , except sat.

ima slp like nobody's business.

k bye

i thought i was special to you.


well, that's what i thought.
turns out , im just an ordinary.
The fun times we had , was as much ,
or even more , with your friends.


go on...



I suddenly feel the creeps for tertiary education.
I wna run away and hide.
It's too early ..

Ukulele.
k ..

Alright.

This week would make a great stepping stone.
Got back my o lvl results on monday.
wasnt expected..
like in a bad way..
jeez.
I kinda got a shock.
It's really depressing i must say..

I didnt do well for my languages.
which obviously implies i suck and have failed in life cos i've been speaking english for the past 16 years or so and yet , i get a C6.
jeez
other than that , humanities too.
what more do i expect actually.
after acting big , spoting the wrong qn for SS.
blah.
i feel sick.
But on the lighter note , amath and science were alright.
not expected , in a good way.
really do have to thank Louisa for the tuition for the past few months before Os.

Still, i cant get into the course i want .
sad..
haish.
i dont know what to do now.

What's more , i think i lost a friend.

no life ah.
alright.

bye

HAN XINYING.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! (:
*BANG,
im 7 days behind time ,
hope you dont mind.
and all the best for the results tmr okay !
you will do well, and you know it , cos you're thickskinned.
Be very touched.
COS I KNOW YOU ARE STALKING ME.
YOU SAY I NEVER UPDATE AND GIVE YOU A BIRTHDAY POST.
DONT WORRY, I WILL TELL NO ONE.
i love you (:



okay .
i know i havent been updating for a million years.
and its a new year alr and ..
yeah.

its 2011!
sorry ah, i lag.

getting back results tmr.
really really scared.
i hope nothing goes wrong.
who am i kidding.
everything's bound to go wrong.
this is freaking me out.

it's like finally our turn.
And the teachers will be asking everyone to go to the hall and see who cry cos they nv work and blah.
That's why i didnt go see the seniors last year.
Its so humiliating cos like small people are watching you cry .
Plus, im so afraid i'll be one of them.

okay great.
i hope i do well.
i really hope i do.
no time for miracles ah.
hai.

On friday, went out with panda to np open house.
Santa was late.
haha. he came with a big behbeh, of which we decided to name it after him.
odd.
and a mini cow and a mini seahorse.
and a pink bear which came with melted chocolates from his mom.
i still loved it ttm !

Ok thats all,
WO HEN PA!
okay byebye