blood brothers.



warning : VERY naggy post ahead.


just wna get this off my chest once and for all.
then i'll forget it.
afterall, my blog. (duh)



stupid events, resentment, nose excrement(water form)
feeling really sick now.
is it the weather or isit just me damn it.


and im really physically and mentally exhausted.
dont HAH me.
i know it's the first day of school.
but my bio clock's real screwed.
somehow i couldnt sleep at all last night.
i mean besides the fact that han told me she banged her head on the fridge and cried.
not sure if it was her birthday
but i had a good laugh. a best laugh actually.
so typical of her.


and yeah today i had lessons at 8am.
and got back 3 MST results today.
not quite what i expected i guess.
in a bad way.
wanted to do way better.
but what can i expect.
little progress at a time k chua xi yu.
yeah and by the time im year 3 my cummulative will be like 3.0 with progress.
and i'll be kicked elsewhere.
was really really tired just now seriously.
when i got home i was so tired i cried.
bladdy stupid.
ok i didnt cry cos im tired stupid.
nvrm.


some issues going on.
so what? just have to live with it.
just because you give in and not gain enough respect from certain people,
especially your loved ones, doesnt mean i should just flare right?
it's not like they care actually.
i mean although its my bf or smth,
doesnt make him any better .
and well, while throwing a stupid fit and myself,
i came out with my new year's resolution.
forgive and forget.
so proud of me right?
bet y'all like , ... ._. duh.
yeah. and i wished everyone in the world , which includes me,
will just forget about the resentment and just appreciate every single mini thing we have.
i like that.
OMG I HAVE A NEW ERASER MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.
k not so mini.
k ya maybe that .


yeah. cant believe i actually had those bad thoughts.
so disappointed in myself.
classmates were talking about new year stuff today.
about how much money their parents gave them to buy clothes and what not.
i honestly honestly went blank.
cos umm i never had money from my parents just to buy clothes.
for new year or anything.
well, at least my mom made sure i didnt have any thoughts.
she'll be like, )(*)(*)(*@#@%#$!@ you have so many clothes and blah blahhh.
those were my sister's bras mom.
no kidding.
yeah and i felt a lil angry and of course jealous, doh.
like so unfair people get to spend hundreds without having to feel the pain of where that amount came from.
it's not that they're rich or anything.
i dont know.
but it felt the norm.
and i felt so stupid.
had the urge to just barge in to my mom's room and reach my hands out.
so bad right.
yeah guess i managed to slap myself damn hard to reality.
literally.
i dont need those stuff to be honest. its all material.
it's not like im in a bad condition any huh?
i got the freaking nerve to blog with my own laptop.
and if i said i dont have anything,
i promise any random person reading this can just slap me and call me bastard.
not so hard hor.
i just want my dad back here


so, blood brothers.
get it?




ok done.

SHOOT ME PLEASE
IM SO TIRED
i nearly fell asleep eating my potatoes for dinner


ok bye

thank god for the no lesson day tmr


bye