th-cathatesfish.

2012-03-01T01:06:00.003+08:00

whoops.

take it that i wasnt celebrating leapyear.
cos i missed blogging on the 29th of feb.
dammit.

went to vivo to eat kimgary's with huivoon and huijuan.
haha my god, all of us were late.
by alot.
we were supposed to meet at 1pm.
but i changed it to 2pm.
and then i woke up 12, snoozed the alarm,
woke up at 1230, thought it was 1215, and played the guitar till 1250.
hahaha.
and yet i was the first to reach.
huijuan and i went to buy hi chew and contact lens solution.
and waited for huivoon.
then we went to eat.
the classic old me, took 1.5 hours to finish the baked rice
it was like 4.45 then.
hahaha.

and we went to the rooftop and talk about crap.
literally. was really fun catching up tho.
really missed the good old days.
wished daren came too dammit.
he's the same old guy.
playing with legos and all.

and i missed leapyear blogging cos da called.
and like 11.
to wish me happy 30th month.
and i was like, so sweet! YOU ACTUALLY COUNT.
and he was like yep, realised 5 mins ago.
ass.
he told me about his DISC talk thingy.
he says he's a highSlowC , and im a highClowS.
no wonder we never ever click.
except for the fact that we're together.
he's the laid back and lazy and take things lightly kind.
and im the compliant and orderly kind.
screw it anyway.
we really cant click. MYGOD.
he was like, thank goodness we're not married and you're regretting it now.
-.- very funny.

having movie marathon with pokes han and jess tmr.
cant wait.
soo.. im trying to screw my bioclock so i can last tmr .
but umm, okay,
go to bed at 230am, get up at 10am , go to the gym,
take a bathe, go to sleep and wake up at 6pm.
perfect.
*cross fingers*
im going to die.
should just be a security guard for life since im so orderly.
good for me.

k bye

2012-02-28T20:44:00.002+08:00

NIGGA.

uploading USS pics on fb now.
so embarassing. omg.

okay..
so the job interview was wierd.
went there at 10am.
and then they told me okay, i got accepted.
yay i got accepted.
yay, not enthusiastically.
because my work starts mid april.
like MID april. pfft.
thats when school starts ):
my gosh.

okay, went to yiyan's house after that.
tanah merah omg.
her house was sooooooooooo far,
soooooooooo isolated, and sooooooooo hot.
but it was awesome.
thank you yiyan (:
went there and stared at them make sushi
was kinda funny,
and they say i waste rice and human space -.-
ok fine.
and then amanda yiuwah and i watched INTIME.
soooo awesome. didnt finish it tho.
and the rest played mahjong. yawnzzz.
bunch of aunties.
heh. left early because it was darn hot,
and i had to go home for dinner. haha

going to meet huijuan and huivoon tmr ! <3
cant waittt :P so sudden but yeah.
hahaha. wooo.
going to vivo. again.
MY GOD.
so sick of that place.

okay byeee.
kinda tired.

2012-02-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

IM SO TIRED I CAN DIE . ):

okay i went to USS today.
AWESOME.
till the back part.

soooooooooo,
i prayed very hard that it wouldnt rain.
and it didnt.
i ought to be thankful right.
THANK GOD AND THANKYOU WORLD!!!
(:

and it rained in the morning.
i was too tired to even cry cos it was raining.
like awesome weather to sleep.
haha and i overslept abit.
bathed, drank milk and went to take bus.
reached at 11.05am.
okay lah hor, 5 minutes.
not late for poly student :P

took the tramp there,
and OMGOMGOMG i was so excited.
hahaha. k mountain tortoise .
sorry lah ):
went like it wasnt singapore.
felt like it was elsewhere.
wooooooo.
okay the first ride we took was the mummy ride.
i think it's the scariest of all rides.
okay when i said that everyone stared at me.
haha. whhhattt.
im not scared of the ride,
scared of the mummies.
think i'll get nightmare tonight.
im still traumatised k.
and yiuwah sat beside me.
he was like WTHWTHWTHOMG.
cos i screamed. and its damn ear piercing.
i have the dolphin pitch scream.
go google it nigga.

and they took that ride TWICE in a row.
.___.
never show mercy wan.
already had sorethroat when i came out.
and well, the photos were screwed.

btw, amanda brought the camera for like nth.
biyu and yiyan kept dodging the camera.
not even supportive of me being a paparazzi.
hmph.
and yeah, all the photos were crap.
still gna upload it on fb tho.
FRIENDDDD
ok so irritating.

and then we took the battlestar galactica thingy.
honestly, i nearly died in that ride.
seriously and honestly.
we took both the red and blue rollercoasters close to 8 times.
7 for me, i gave up on the last ride.
so gidddy.
okay so the first time i sat with yiyan,
and there was this big guy sitting inbetween biyu and i.
so.. yiyan, me , guy, then biyu.
and yiyan and i were like OMGOMGOMGOMGG
she was like going to cry already.
hahaha. and the guy was like saying in chinese,
nvrm lah, i dont mind. you all can scream as much as you like.
after the ride he walked away.
think he regretted it so much.
yiyan's my scream buddy.
hahahah

and we took the transformers ride twice.
awesomest ride evarrrrrrrrrrrrr.
it's so cool i can die.
honestlyyyy.
okay the first time we took it,
it was superbbb
and then the second time,
we split into 2 .
me amanda and yiuwah went into one carriage.
and danielle biyu and yiyan took the other.
it was darn funny.
cos we sat with a couple of unfamiliar people.
and there was these few malay women sitting behind us.
it was an AWESOME 4d ride.
the kept screaming and screaming.
and amanda was like, eh scream back leh. 1...2...
and i screamed throughout.
hahaha they suddenly kept quiet.

okay, we went to far far away for lunch
not far away.
as in the shrek place.
omg it was so nice i could cry.
and i was being called childish cos they were like -____-
so sad dammit.
wish da was there.
okay i mean he would -___- me too,
but at least he'll give in. hahaha.
the shrek show was kinda cool.
4D and everything.
but the spider part really freaked me out.
there was this spider effect grabbing u from underneath ur chair.
i was thinking, mannnn how did they hire all these ppl to grab our legs.
and for the rest of the show i hugged my legs k.
yiuwah was laughing like mad. idiot .
and omg. some stranger sitting on my left turned out to be a cute korean guy.
my whole life wasted. *facepalm*
so embarassing.

and y'know the worst part?
i didnt take picture with puss in boots.
eh wahlaoo. i wanted to cry, seriously.
the person said come back at 4.
and im like okay ):
and like they took the rides and forgot about the taking picture thing.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))):::::::::
my god, that was the only mascot i wanted to take picture with.
and we took this kiddy dragon ride.
haha! so fun k.
was like begging yiuwah to sit infront .
the front of the kiddy rollercoaster.
and die die dont want.
then i realised he was afraid.
then we started daring him to take the scary seats of the battlestar.
he kept cursing with charsiewpau and everything.
no idea where he's from.

so yeah, great experiences today.
well, nobody's perfect.
everybody has their weaknesses.
danielle may appear strong and everything ( very violent )
so scared of her sometimes honestly.
but yeah , today's her weakness.
and amanda's usually scared of everything about bugs , being trapped in the left and stuff,
but when it's about today,
she's like -___________________-
literally.
very interesting.
again, nobody's perfect.
kinda have a wider perspective about things now.

da came over for dinner.
omg.
he finished everything that was on the table.
which is like my dad's serving.
or more O:
plus, my sis didnt eat her share.
and he was like om nom noms.
my mom say he's like laoshu.
he came over for dinner during reunion.
and he ate one bowl of rice.
and mom went to sleep just now.
she wake up stun, everything gone.

alright, gta get to novena at 10am tmr.
i am dead.
and then head to yiyan's place at 12.
yiyan.
y.i.y.a.n
she lives in tanah merah btw.
im in bukit batok.
wish me luck.

ok bye.

2012-02-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

PLANS CHANGED.

IM GOING TO USS TMR.
OMGOMGOMGG I PRAY FOR THE WRONG DAY.

PLEASE RAIN ON TUESDAY AND EVERY OTHER DAY.
PLEASE DONT RAIN TMR.
); PLEASEEEE.

whooppeee.
haha so eggcitedd.
cant wait.
and plus, so much better i dont have to miss out the fun for an hour cos of the interview.
teehee.

going out with minghui soon (:
hee.

bye guys.

2012-02-26T18:05:00.002+08:00

spent the entire day staying in my room.
like a boss.
whole life wasted.
hahaha

is my voice like in your head while you're reading this?
if so, then.
honavavulahshsalululu.
(:

okay, so this coming week's gna be a VERY busy week.
haha. who am i kidding.
hmm, so gna go yiyan's house tmr with the peeps.
woohoo choc fondue babeh.
frieeeenddddsss.
and probably gna meet da,
he's gna like come over for dinner or smth.
my dinner, his lunch.
we face-timed yesterday.
and it was damn wierd.
we were like crapping out and everything.
and i got bored, and got distracted by my comb.
so i was talking to him , but facing my comb.
he got pissed. hahaha. and then he start checkin' himself out?
eww.
and he said, does face look fat? am i getting fat?
._________.
i thought i was supposed to ask that.
female. sheesh.

okay and tuesday,
the interview thingy at 10am,
and USS at 12noon.
sounds alright. i hope i dont get lost at united square.
i honestly didnt know where novena was.
till i checked out the map and stuff.
im so stupid, im sorry ):
hope it wont rain on tuesday.
please rain every single day except tuesday please please pleasee.

im free on wednesday, i think......
and on thursday jess, pokes and han(eww) are staying over.
the classic old movie marathon kinda thing.
bet we'll just sleep at 2am. bunch of swines we are.
hahaha.
it failed with rosalind, it failed with pokes.

meeting da on friday for the usual.
dinner and stuff.
cant wait to meet him.
ok no wait, im meeting him tmr.
hahahaha. goldfish.

so on saturday hoohoo.
going to KL in the afternoon with sis.
and on sunday, rosalind's driving over.
i meant her dad.
and on monday we're going to genting.
i dont know for what.
just like the cold feeling.
go there lepak.
my sister will so give me that look.
):

i'll be back on wednesday,
and meet amanda and the others for donuts.
krispy kreme.
OMG, I CANT WAIT FOR KRISPY KREME I CAN DIE.
you know i kept irritating my mom about donuts
cos i cant wait to eat krispy kreme.
she gave me 150 ringit to buy donuts so i would keep quiet.
hahahahhahaa.
i love mom.

and my phone doesnt have autoroam.
so.
we're dead.

okay so that's all for the next 2 weeks.
haha wth.
i practically summarised everything so i dont have to blog for the next 2 weeks?
nahh. bet you guys will miss me.
i was kidding k.
now im talking to myself.
facepalm.

k bye.
xoxo

2012-02-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAA.
why am i so cute.
ugly.

i wrote this in May 2011,
''even if i cant, i wanna look out for you in every mini way.''

MAY.

who the hell am i kidding?

2012-02-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

it's saturday already?
wth.
feels like thursday.
time flies when you're having holidays aye.
i mean when IM having holidays
heh

ohhh.
i got shortlisted for some job.
lucky me. haha.
but it's on tuesday morning, dammit.
then i'll go uss late.
haha fine.

so, i went out with da yst
like the WHOLE day.
idiot guy always late.
sometimes i just feel like standing him up.
like come an hour later or smth.
of course i wouldnt do that.
but yeah, he did that to me.
nevermind lor.
wasted my time tho. pfft.
couldve gone to the gym.
nvrm, tonight go.

so yeah,
he came over to my house.
and we swopped shoes.
i think my shoes are nicer than his.
pfft.
we took a bus to town, ended up at 313.
so bored of that place.
went to ngeeann city and we junked.
like buy random stuff on the way.
went to watch a movie, HUGO.
awesome movie.
honestly. i loooooved it.
for ppl like da dying for action movies, nah.
but i liked it.
he secretly liked it too. ._.
haha that sad guy wanted to watch ghost rider.
but i watched it with rosalind alr.
and he was jealous.
:P bet he was crying inside.
and out.
popcorn is sick.
officially over it.

so we went ion to eat.
and i caught this fish.
(posted it on fb and twitter)
so cuteee. i kept laughing, and took a picture.
the 3 fishes were stuck tgt in the corner of the tank.
apparently they were meant to be eaten sooner or later.
so they're like, bitch pleaseeeee.
hahaha. so cute.
yeah. imagine myself laughing outside the high end restaurant ,
da had to drag me away.
hahahha.
been watching lots of movies these few days.
i feel so sick. bleah.
hahaa the good life. i think.

and so after that we went to hang around .
feel funny walking around in the same shoes.
copy cat.
and my shoe felt kinda tight.
he told me change it or smth.
i'll be women size 10.5. OMG NO.
nevermind.

code 788339s, you okay there?

bye guys.

2012-02-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

CODE 788339 S.

do you roger?
7/3

OVER.

hahaha

okay im so childish.
haha wtvs.
been rotting the whole day still.

i loike.
bye.

2012-02-23T15:10:00.002+08:00

YAWWWWWWWN.

holidays are boring, yet awesome.
the thought of not having to step into sp for the next 7 weeks
is just AMAZING.

been staying at home like a boss.
just kidding,
for these 2 days only.

cant wait to go out tmr.
some problem with my phone.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU.
i mean, my phone is damn clean.
so virus, no porno, no games , no internet , no nothing.
just that i drop my phone like twice a day or smth.
talking about dropping.
i keep dropping my itouch.
like more often than myphone.
usually at public places.
like i'll be holding my earpiece and listening to music and poof.
yep. and the rilakkuma cover's like very very very sad.

okay.
been practicing the guitar since just now.
and i cant really..

my muscle hurts so muchh ):
from the gym yst.
it only started to hurt after midnight.
odd right.
stupid flabby arms deserved to be shot.
okay no i was kidding please dont shoot my arms.

okay, so the plan for now is...
nothing. k bye

gna go out with da tmr.
his exams ending like today.
i meant common tests.
common test really sounds very strange to me now.

we're gna wear those shoes!

i miss that fat butt.

k bye.

Lifehouse - Somewhere Only We Know (Live @ Yahoo!)

2012-02-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

k cover cover cover all my thoughts.
this is the 2nd time im posting this song.

ever notice the drummer?
have fun laughing aye.
kinda miss cousin.
laughed with her about this drummer till 6am the last time.

cheers guys.

2012-02-23T02:05:00.001+08:00

see, that's exactly what i said yesterday.

WHY.

2012-02-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

feeling kinda emotional today.
sentimental and sad sort.
i dont know man.

okay got woke up at like 11 by yiuwah.
frieeenddd.
jeeezzzuz.
he called me , to ask for someone else's number.
and i sounded so.. sleepy.
feel like kicking them.

went to the gym for workin' out.
liar.
haha not quite.
spent like slightly more than an hour there.
and took a bathe and went to jurong kechil.
i placed sammy ( my trumpet) on auction.
chances are very, very slim.
but worth a try.
my eyes seriously felt so watery when i left him in their hands.
i felt like i was abandoning my baby or something.
he IS my baby.
miss sammy now ):

okay, and i went to return the dvds,
and got mom the can of peanuts she needed.
she told me to buy a whole friggin long list of groceries.
you should've seen the look on her face when she saw that
the only thing i bought were a mini can of peanuts worth 65cents.
c'mon im sorry mom, that was the only thing i could remember.

have so many things to be completed this holiday.
at least these are things i hope to achieve:

- work out, get back to shape. if i were in shape once. -.-
- get a job. barista thingy? please call me soon k.
- SAMMY.
- KL trip. to be able to come home in one piece, with donuts.
- India?
- guitar. must work harder.
- OMG i forgot about benny.
- finish reading THAT book.
- spend my time wisely. im not even wise to begin with.

yep that's all.

tomorrow will be a great day !
in approximately 3 days i'll be sick of saying that.

kinda miss dad ,
hope he's fine.
he wont be, if he know's what happened to the fish.

bye guys

2012-02-22T02:29:00.005+08:00

Oh well, i cant sleep.
so i'd rather talk to myself now,
at 2.37 am. can hor?
can.
nuuu . k im talking to myself.

whatever this post is about,
it's not about that fat bottom boyfriend of mine ok?
if not he'll be misunderstood.

just put it that whatever posts i ever make on this blog,
are for some unknowns alright?
be it him , or my bestfriend or somewhat person.
i feel bad if i write about something,
and people are asking if so-and so did this,
or if it were my bf or whatnot.
i feel bad.
but no choice i guess?
how do i even name that person, from the start?

gonna have a rant?
nah, not say a rant.
just feel like getting things off my chest.
after being troubled for so long.
just feels so wierd.
i kinda feel numb or smth?

Its like, this is me.
and the suitcase in hand is empty,
barren and void like a desert;
but what do I have to take with me when you've plundered and stolen everything else?
okay i wont use stolen.
i voluntarily gave it to you.
and watched you walk away
nope, i dont regret it
and yes, that suitcase im holding.
im emotionally unbalanced.

Sometimes the lonely dirt road is strangely unfamiliar, I stride towards it.
You caught my hand, once.
As i wretched my body to face towards you ,
your gasps surge down my face and eyes distort, wild with fear.
I never fail to question myself stupidly where we were heading to.
it's been long now.
less than a year if you can count.

Lets just start off to say i never really cared so much about someone ever,
except for that boyfriend of mine. haha
Telling myself to put things down may be easy,
but sometimes, or most of the time,
some random thought just strikes me.
real randomly.
on some days i feel like im okay, and i can do it.
i can face the world, feeling happier for you, alone.
and on some days im just a wreck.
just wanting to grab you back,
sit with you. and escape elsewhere, far from this wretched place.
i really hate myself sometimes.
especially during the most vulnerable moments.
i dont know if it's just will.
but at moments like these, not knowingly you'll be the one that steps forward.
step forward? more like you pop out.
that instant remarkable surprise, of having you pop out of my life for that mere hour of texting,
just makes my day. for at least the next 30 hours.
30 is odd. okay, 24 hours .
my whole freaking life just lit up like a lightbulb when i felt touched.
u actually do read.
and it's not like you're just hopping by here.
it's because you want to. but why so?
had to slap myself back to reality aye?
and yeah. i think my light bulb over powered, the fuse kinda blew.

To put things into place,
lets just say i feel like a wounded soldier, a toy one.
i like toys.
carrying a rusted rifle walking weakly.
That permanent sour feeling inside, the stream of pain
never fails to fade.

Just move on please xiyu,
you're not for me.

all of a sudden after i've written down every single bit,
i feel so pathetic.
jeez. i am pathetic.
i shall not be pathetic. and be unpathetic.
yes.
no more being pathetic anymore.
woo!

i. am. a . happy. person. k.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

urgh, who am i kidding?

A Kitty and a Good Dog

2012-02-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha
this is so freaking cute.
awwwww <3
and that cat looks like ginger.
):

waiting for that lady to bathe.
women these days...
tsk tsk tsk.

Adele - Set Fire To The Rain (Boyce Avenue cover) on iTunes

2012-02-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

boyce avenue yoohhooo

this song kinda makes me laugh now.
after i saw the 9gag thing.

set fire to the rain...

watched it burn...

as i touched your face.

hahahahhahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

okay crap too much sugar at night.
i need help.

k im in fact feeling very upset now.
but some person.
SOME. (,:
popped up and cheered me .
in like 4 minutes after i felt so upset i wanted to cry.

thanksss.
(:

2012-02-21T23:54:00.002+08:00

hai.

okay, kinda feeling lethargic now.
but who cares.
i feel so upset ):
didnt get to go to USS today.

welllll.........
i woke up on time k.
very.
okay my alarm didnt ring at all,
but amanda and yiuwah woke me with message.
and like said that it would rain in the afternoon, WITH THUNDERS.
so like talk about it and stuff.
and decided not to go. ):
okay and i said, if it didnt rain, i'll cry k.

guess what?
it really didnt rain -.-
yeah and danielle yiuwah amanda biyu and yiyan decided to crash into my house.
so be it .
haha.
okay so we watched 2 movies.
1 horror, and 1 comedy.
the horror was like some korean movie.
seeeeeriously.
i kept screaming, being paranoid, covering my face with the bagfull of chips.
and irritating them.
i dont know. i tried to make things funny cos i was scared.
and yeah. i spoiled the story.
hahaha.
okay and my sister . *face palm*
she called me, to the house phone, while she was in her room.
just to pass her the bag of chips i was holding.
im so embarassed.

so im a bad host. ):
my home doesnt have a sofa btw.
my dad donated it to other people with greater needs than us.
i dont mind :D
so yeah. they sat on the floor, dad's chair, seats, everywhere.
ended up like lying on the floor and everything.
cool. haha.
we watched hangover2.
was kinda funny. hahaha.
been long since i've had a good laugh.

well, for now .
i just hope those major worries would just float by.
i mean yeah, life is never easy.
but, at least let me get through this please.

thank you.

2012-02-20T19:06:00.003+08:00

im back.

bad day today.
i mean, it was good generally.
but i didnt get what i want .
and bad experience .
so...
jeez.

went to bishan today first.
and then i went to bugis with pokes.
i waited like 1 hour alone.
and when pokes came we went to the place.
and then it sucks.
so we went off.
and we went to walk around, then eat.
was kinda fun.
mah pokes.
same old pokes.
hehheh

oh yeah.
so the class chalet's changed to march.
and its either 5th or 12th march.
and i cant make it on the 5th cos im going to kl.
asked amanda and the rest to vote for 12th.
now i feel kinda bad about it.
and i feel selfish. ):

okay going to USS tmr!
felt so excited for awhile.
then amanda and pokes said its not as exciting as it seems.
then ok lor.
i can sleep in peace tonight then.
hahaha.

okay lah .
byee <3

Epic Cupcake Time

2012-02-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

HYAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAA.

daren , daren.
he showed me this, just.
cos he was bored.
sounds like me?
hahha

bitch pleaseee :D

2012-02-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

boo!
haha yeah im back home already.
so early.

went out with you-know-who today!
k you dont.
i went out with rosalind.
teehee.
not ):
i couldnt sell sammy.
gna try at accent i guess.
must be happy-go-lucky like rosa.
:D

okay so we went bras basah,
and then we went back to cityhall,
saw her mom and mama by accident.
haha.
her grandma's so cute seriously.
and then we went to somerset.
took turns to carry cos, he's a big fat ass.
like 5kg.
and she was like NO LA! siao. where got heavy.
after 3 mins she started complaining.
that woman needs to sort out her priorities.

okay we went to marche babehh.
okay it was damn awesome.
i feel like a fat person now.
okay, fine.
fatter.
we shared everything that we paid for.
we shared the rosti. AWESOME. i swear.
the best potato ever.
it was likee... botak hashbrowns.
i dont know . hahaa.
and we shared ravioli, pathetic. and 18 bucks.
not nice. and calamari. nahh .
and pizza, we packed.
haha we're such losers.
i gave up after the rosti actually ( first dish)
haha whatever.
i went there for the bread and butter pudding yawwww.
okay we had bread and butter pudding <3
together.
we shared everything.
awww. hahaa.
and we had tart. together.
so mini. but yeahh (Y)
and we were crapping alot alot alot.
the tart tasted nice, but wierd.
it was like cake-like inside, and tarty outside, with bread taste.
soooooo we called it basket.
naise. (O:
and the apple tea.
ahhhhhhhh.

okay so we talked ALOT.
and we started laughing ALOT.
the person beside us stared.
hahaha.
i called her bf susu. (Y)
hahahahaa.

ohohohoh.
and like all of a sudden some person called me.
im going for an interview with pokes tmr (:

guess what?
we went to watch ghost-rider.
i seriously dont know what that was.
didnt even know there was a part one till the movie ended.
and i kept bugging her throughout. like what's that? who's that?
haha im so irritating.
okay so the movie was alright.
i mean, if you know me, i never EVER watch action movies.
except transformers (O:
i love transformers.

so we like hang around cineplex.
and we decided to take a bus.
omg we're such asses.
the bus we were suppose to take to clementi supposedly passed.
we just hopped onto any random bus.
and YES, we landed in clementi.
the bus, was 175 -.-
so familiar.
the poly marina bus. heh whoops.

we bought bubble tea.
i felt so sick .
yucck.
haha.
dont actually fancy bubbles anymore.
haha bubbles.

tmr will be great day.
try to go to accent if i can.

and then on tuesday..
USS!
rosalind says its fun.
please dont lie to meeeeeee.

i love her.
heh

2012-02-19T00:54:00.001+08:00

it's rather stupid.

however my day may be,
whatever may happen,
or how i go through it,

at the end of the day,
you're still the last person i'll think about before i sleep.

worth it?

i wish it was.

2012-02-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

wassuppp.

sorry i wasnt able to post for hours
because i was busy with .........

ABSOUTELY NOTHING.

wth.
im so bored alr.
take me away from here plzzzzzzz.

okay yeah.
so my day was spent sitting by the tv,
like a potato( and a boss)
doing nothing but watching tv.
duh. what else can u do when u sit by the tv.
k. i amaze myself sometimes.

here's me starting with the talking-to-myself syndrome.
i call it le TTM syndrome.
sounds cool.
and unique
and awesome.
*waves in denial*

so yeah.
looking for a job now.
im so poor.
im so poor that im going to have to ask my mom for allowance in advance.
because im going to universal studios.
and marche.
and monday im MEETING POKES.
yaaaaaaaay.

me pokes.
so yeah.
promise i'll pay mom back when i get back my allowance,
gna try to find a second hand dealer tmr as well for sammy.
feeling kinda emotional when i polished him up just now.
mah boi ):
k lah, really must let go.
i need the cash badly.
i feel really guilty towards mom and dad.

so yeap, thats my day.
tmr and mon and tues will be awesome.
please, i beg you.
and every other day of the holiday.
im not really asking to have fun every day.
just really hope that every day will be alright for everyone,
and myself.

okay thenn.
im going to meet rosalind tmr yayy.
hooga hooga.

byeee

xoxo.

2012-02-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOO.

im stress free naozzzz.
ppppphhhhhhhhhhhewwwww.

okay my exams are officially, over.
now time to move on, look for a job,
go to USS with frieeendddsss
sell my trumpet, go KL, hopefully India too.
and lots of stuff.
LOTS.

had 2 exams today
stats in the morning and port ops in the afternoon.
helped sebas to cheat.
my gosh, i feel so bad.
okay, and then port ops was okay.

after port ops went to the MRT to stone with yiuwah and amanda for 30 mins.
and waited till da come.
he was in uniform.
and he said he wanted to go DRINK with me.
very funny.
so we went to town.
ALLLLLLLLLLLLL the way to plaza sing to fix sis phone.
of which we didnt, cos she didnt want her stuff in her phone to be erased.
zzz.
so we walked alllllllllllll the way back to orchard central and started looking at shoes,
like we promised we would.
and we went to vans , converse and dr marts'
da liked the vans, and i liked the converse shoe.
it was damn cool.
the converse shoe like jeans material.
and da can wear it to school.
but yeah, DUH . i lost.
dr marts' too ex.
so we decided..........
buy 2 shoes.
one for school and one for going out together.
same design and everything.

and blah blahh we looked around for very long.
ended up, yes . i lost.
we got the vans shoe.
damn it.
i got dark blue while he got brown.
but same design.
and im so manly ):
my feet is humongous.
seriousslly.
i never lie
and my shoulders are broad.
my feet's still growing.
and it's like women size 9.5 now.
jeeeeeeeezzzzzuzz.
what's wrong with me.
i want to grow in length.
not foot size dammit.
think the shoes were quite nice tho.

BUT.
BUT!
we brought home each other's shoes.
how stupid. hahahaha.
damn ):

k i feel bored already.
no movies, no nothing.
IM SO BORED.

cant wait to meet rosalind on sunday.
we're going to have brinner.
if u know what i mean.
haha.
be like fat ladies in marche.
im so eggcited!

okay lah.
gna just be a sponge and die at home tmr.

byess

2012-02-17T11:58:00.002+08:00

at 4.20pm today at t242 in SP,
if you hear someone scream.

yep, thats me.

IM ENDING THE EXAMS TODAY.
i cant even study now ):

hop hop hop hop hop .
heh.

meeting da later.
he still have common tests in 2 weeks.
hahahha.
he laughed at me first.
nyah hahaa

bye.

2012-02-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

i feel loike a potato.

ate shepherd's pie.
so awesomeeee.
i love mom.
thank you (:
when i grow up.
im already up, dammit.
k after my exams im gna make 10 pies for my mom.
heh.

my life is a wreck now.
okay for today.
TODAY ONLY.
tomorrow's gna be awesome k.
after 4.30 pm.
last day.
and it's the most pathetic day.
my butt and back hurts from sitting at the same spot for hours.
i need. freedom.
can almost smell it.
im cominggggg for you holidayssss babeh.

okay i pray hard my calculator.
( the same one)
doesnt die halfway like how it died during accountings last sem.
like yeah. it died. LAST SEM.
so sad right.
and yet i still use you.
you ungrateful creature.
why am i talking to my calculator now.
i must be nuts from the tests.
*cross fingers*
may nothing happen please.
thank you.

i want to see rosalind.
now.

):

anyway xiyu, you should just let go.
everyone has their own lives anyway, right?

2012-02-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i cant wait to go KL damn it.
cant wait to get out of here.
i need airrrrrrrrrrrr.
and i need my rosalind.
havent seen her for so long.

sis and i just booked the hotel at furuma.
its like behind berjaya times square.
heh heh krispy kreme (:<
okay yeah. and rosalind booked hers like at chinatown.
where IS chinatown?!
okay anyways.
her dad paid like 570sing dollars for 3 nights.
and we paid 320 bucks for 4 nights.
imagine her comfort zone versus ours.
.____.
nevermind.
the donuts are more important.

guess what?
she's working at A&F and she got her pay.
her PAY.
hehheh.
she's gna treat me marche.
i love her so so so much.
remember we were damn poor the other time.
and we could only afford bread and one bread and butter pudding.
and then we promised each other if we have money, we'll treat each other.
my turn next k.
will bring her somewhere special on her birthday.
besides gloria jeans. hahahaha.

okay. so happy i forgot to study.
):
shucks.
port ops really killer.
my brain no more space.
left 113mb.
HOW.
the info like 500 TB.

umm.
okay bye.

2012-02-15T15:15:00.002+08:00

okay presentation's over.
it was fine.
good.
haha k.

i just came back home.
feel real sleepy.
have 2 more papers to go on friday.
stats and port ops.
i wanna play alreadyyy!!!

bet by the time exam's over, i'll be like bored already.
but we're going USS.
yayyayyayyyyyyyyy.
mountain tortoise.

and there's class chalet.
hmm.
bet everyone's gna drink.
kinda got abit traumatised by the apple martini the other time.
so scarrry.
so yeah. go there drink milk or smth.

okay so,
i have no intention to study now.
pfft.
kkkk.

yesterday was fine.
i know it was valentine's and whatever.
but yeah. whatever.
da and i just went to eat.
stone. get cheesepopcorn and went home.
and i gave him that jar.
whatever. haha.

bye .

Katy Perry - "The One That Got Away (Acoustic)"

2012-02-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

i .i.i.i.i.i.ii love this very muchhh.
so childish.
k i love it omgomgomgomgomgogmogmomgg.
so naiseee.
why do i like always find nice songs when it's the exam period.
i should diee.

sis just gave me 50 bucks voucher from capitaland.
cos i gave her THE eyes.
okay im lying.
im turning 18 this year , so it wont work anymore.
so irritating. pfft.

i cant study i cant study ! ):

2012-02-13T18:44:00.002+08:00

hai guisee

done with one paper already!
i feel like exams are over actually.
the moment i got home i went straight to the teevee,
and then to my mom ( for food)
meow.

bunkering tomorrow.
and guess what?!
tomorrow's valentines day.
nah kidding.
nth special actually.
remember our first valentine's during sec4.
and it was CNY at the same time i rmb.
and then he called me at midnight.
''aww so sweet'' right?
he said, ohhhh happy CNY ! -.-
as if i needed that.
hahha.
good times.

rosalind and i made a date, THIS SUNDAY.
FINALLY THANK GOD.
i havent met her for more than a month.
didnt even meet her during my concert.
pfft.
miss her so damn much.
i'd give her a kiss.
umm. k.
hahaha.
we're like the , you-know-i-love-you kind.
but at the same time if we hug, like eww?
like this family kinda thing.
if you know what i mean.

ARGH IM SO TIRED I WNA SLEEP NOW.
but if i sleep, i wont wake up till midnight,
which is screwed.
and i'll go to bed at 5am again.
and wake up like 2pm the next day which is wrong.
so, no sleeping.

gna slp like a baby tonight k.
like 9.
ok 10.
1030.
i woke up at 5 plus 6 today.
for gened.
GENED.
YOU KIDDING ME.
okay its overrr babehh.
no more talking about it..

i bought da cake tho.
and the jar of hearts' done!
phew.

okay bye.
<3

2012-02-12T12:46:00.002+08:00

R.I.P whitney Houston.

really loved her songs alot..

okay anw..
today's the last day to fit EVERY single economic stuff in my head.
if you get what i mean.

went out to dinner with da yesterday.
he drove out to fetch his friend.
and then pick me up at sp.
we went to eat korean,
and we came up smelling like barbequed pork.
and i mean PORK. ):

got so stressed out from everything i started screaming in the car.
not sure if the beetle's sound proof.
okay yeah and he started shouting.
like crazy ppl.
and then we started singing and whacking those lyrics.
and i turned to 90.5 and he was like .___________________________.
imagine if it's really not sound proof.

ok bye.

Someone Like You - Adele (Cover by Jake Coco)

2012-02-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

cocococococococo!

was in a very very very bad mood just now.
but since the essay's done,
just gna forgive and forget (:
everything will be ok.
why think about it anw when its over

(:

2012-02-10T11:00:00.005+08:00

hai.

stats lab's over.
yayy.
and i think i did the regression question wrong.
which is 37% .
boo ):

dad's leaving for india today.
i pray that he'll be safe and not work so hard.
and not eat too much dahl curry cos he has knee problems.
so stubborn, tsk.

okay . so now he's at home.
and he packed alot alot alot of equipment.
like over a hundred kg and everything.
and he's like wow, heavier than me eh .
-_____-
i know.
plus, he gave me a red packet.
i dont know why either.
he says cos he wont see me for very long.
and i asked , then why must give?
he said, i dont know.
and mom said, that's your allowance.
i dont get adults sometimes.
sheesh.

he's going to the airport later but im not following.
it's all da's fault.
he's to blame.
nah kidding.
cos we're meeting.
he wants to go to la petite again.
thickskin eh haha.
cos i brought him there last year for his birthday.
and he liked it.
but i rushed him so much, cos jx and the others were getting impatient.
not my fault waddd ):
umm anw, he said he liked the foie gras.
of which i told him a few months later, that it was , actually,
duck liver.
hahaha imagine his expression.
he said it tasted like prawn wanton.
so umm yeah. guess he doesnt mind (O:
gta study now.
if not later no time alr.

and my second sis's going to cruise with my aunt now.
for a few day.
CRUISE . WHY CRUISE.
why with out me anw ):
stupid exams.
and it's royal carribean anw.
okay so like the house no one alr.
cos my elder sis works till late.
just me and teddy against the world.
and my mom.
okay better not say anw childish stuff.
amanda and yiuwah are claiming i have down syndrome.
supposed to be autism anw.
cos i talk to myself, talk to my friends (toys) and like amaze myself.
jeez.
and plus i have the simian crease.
THE simian crease.
haha kidding.
but i really have it uh.

porridge for lunch with dad.
eww.nevermind i sacrifice lor.

haha, i think i can get over it now.
like NOW.

2012-02-09T19:18:00.002+08:00

frienddddddddddddd.

okay im really beginning to irritate myself.
it's so addictive.
just met up with da for ''lunch''
he was wearing pe attire .
like shorts.
haha so cute.
cos he's like embarassed of his supposedly fat thighs.
oh i hate him so.

anw,
the 7th person this year telling me how broad my shoulders are.
i feel so depressed D:
it's amanda.
sheesh.
okay so like great sign of relief that i didnt choose lifesaving k.

didnt do so well for effcom ):
like quite bad.
damn it.
i really suck at english .
i should just communicate using sign language.
to hell with me.

stats lab exam tmr.
*cross fingers* pray hard i'll do good for this.
cos the last one i got a head block halfway
and ended up getting 65 plus.
why am i so stupid ):

okay and i have to stay in school for 6.5 hours
cos of the gened partner.
that photo essay better be worth it.

okay bye guys.

2012-02-08T22:18:00.001+08:00

haha,

suddenly remember how stuffys got locked out of the room
while attempting to invite me to that room cos there was no one.

come to think of it it's really funny.

and heart wrenching...

I Can't Make You Love Me / Make You Feel My Love Adele Live at the Royal...

2012-02-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

omg )':
k this vid is kinda long, ten minutes..
but trust me, it's worth watching.
honest.
very worth.
i think it's one of the best videos i ever watched in my life.
she's so cute. (:

and it kinda brings back all the hanging out time we used to do..
kinda miss yer.

2012-02-08T13:14:00.004+08:00

hai guiseee.

couple of things to blog about before i forget.
exams are coming .
like literally.
realistically,
next week.
HOLY .
okay, if i put that aside...
holidays starts next week!
as in saturday.
or after i finish my paper.
yayy.

and im going to universal studios with
biyu yiyan yiuwah(frieenddd) amanda danielle and a few more i think.
so eggcited.
because I'VE NEVER BEEN THERE.
yayy.
._.
okay i mean i went outside the universal studios,
to eat garette's cheese popcorn.
yeap, that's about it.

currently trying to force myself to finish the jar of candy da bought for me,
so i can fill it up with mini-hearts.
haha.
jar of hearts . get it ? get it??
*awkward.*
k fine.
my irrelevance always gets in the way.
remember how da and i joked about breaking up when the candy's finished.
and ironically im trying to finish it.
will get a slap on my foreheard if finds out.
and the candy's melted already.
cant believe it.
why do you even melt?!! ):<

and btw,
there's this PE module that starts in year2.
and 10 choices to choose from.
life saving was one of them.
i wanted it so badly. ):
it's like one of my dreams and everything.
but jeez, no one's taking it anw.
gonna be so lonely.
so decided to be an indoor person by following biyu and yiyan for bowling.
hmm..
anw considering the in-the-way broad shoulders and not wanting to damage my hair
from the chlorine waters,
oh well. life saving was my second choice.
will be really really happy if i get in tho.

and i met han in the bus yesterday.
HAN .
OMG HAN.
she's the last person on earth i'll ever meet.
cos she's in tp.
and i met her at dover, in the 106 bus.

.________.
just thought some aunty with the same hair that looks like han.
and it WAS han.
hahahaa.
she told me she was gna pick up yoga.
and im like, remember during O levels you told me you're gna jog and climb stairs everyday?
hahaha.
hope to meet her reallll soon .

okay, so my days are numbered.
as in days to be doomed for exams.
yes numbered,
so strong motivational drive and what-soever.
but yeah.
just gna give a last shot k.

bye guise.

2012-02-07T18:52:00.003+08:00

that piece of dwindling self-confidence.

people usually say,
i am who you think i am. because i cant control how you feel about me.
i beg to differ.
shouldn't one just prove himself?
i'll make you think who i am.
and i'll prove it.
shouldn't it be that way?

i dont even want to face you.
face the consequences,
infinitely a more mild version of the intended impact of that phrase.
i feel like the just putting everything down,
take a deep breath,
and take a break out of everything.
every single thing, all of my commitments.

i am not trash afterall.
and i'll prove it.

persevere woman.
i can go through this slum.

Use Somebody - Acoustic Kings of Leon (Jake Coco and Jess Moskaluke Cove...

2012-02-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
was initially feeling very very very tired and restless.
having some 3-4 hour study break now before port ops.
and its so warm and everything.

well, this song definately got me cheered up.
(:
the days will be better woman.
it will be.

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Jake Coco Acoustic Piano Cover) on iTunes

2012-02-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

of all covers in the world i love this guy's.
man, he needs more recognition

2012-02-06T19:07:00.003+08:00

kissing with your eyes opened.

truthful? or not truthful?
kinda getting tired of crying or even tearing up over something so worthless.
if you wont even feel a tinge of pain,
what's the point?
crying over someone who doesnt care?
that's plain stupid.
and i am plain stupid.

sorry, i had that last bit of faith in you.
some things you do,
really hurt me . alot.
really.
dont understand why humans are so stupid.
i really hate this feeling right now.
and im not going to blame the exams or anything.
whatever man, whatever.

im freaking tired already.
give me a break.

talk about treasuring or appreciating.
sorry, i really dont think i deserve this.
why does everything have to be so hard?

i want myself back.

why did we even talk about the future?

OneRepublic - Good Life (AOL Sessions)

2012-02-05T13:19:00.000+08:00

i know im bloddy slow and everything.
holy crap they're so awesome.
first time seeing their live vid.
so awesome !
everyone multi-tasks.
i wanna have a band like that .
hahaha

play the uke with my left hand and right foot.
and guitar with my right hand and left food.
haha just kidding.
awesome drumer too
should watch lifehouse live too.
the drumer's umm..
bad ass.
hahahaha.

2012-02-05T11:43:00.004+08:00

phew.

finally got myself recharged.
after the many days of the not sleeping so well ordeal.
damn it but tmr's monday again.

the the final part is around the corner.
and everything else will be fine there after, i think.

really have to figure out my dad ALWAYS open the room door,
shouts my name, and then slam the door.
gosh.

oh and yeah, the india trip's not confirmed,
but i'd like to go.
visit dad and get experiences.
idk? just wna go to a diff place for awhile.

anywhere else i'd like to go alone,
would be next year then.
the bagpacking on my 18th thing?
fail.
i must just get stuck halfway cos i ran out of cash.
maybe pluck some apples for ppl or smth.
that's what happened to my sister.
and she got so bonded with some horse i bet she cried when she left-.-
typical her.

dad's cooking today.
coolio. been VERY very long since he messed up the kitchen.
can just predict what might happen later on.

and on friday me and da went to ikea right.
we bought some pencil holder.
hahaha.
it was like 2 for 1.80?
yeah.
i saw wrong, i thought it was 7.20.
ended up losing my bet on the hotdog bun):
and we were talking about couple shoes,
ended up buying the ''couple'' pencil holder.
tch. cheapo.
anw our couple shoe will be more like twin shoes?
my foot size is like same as his or a size smaller.
im 7/8 and he's 8.
kinda sucks huh.
bruthhherrrrss.

oh ya, im coming back on the 7th march for KL trip.
which is wednesday?
so gna tell amanda i can bring back krispy kreme for her !

ok bye.
haha

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

2012-02-04T14:45:00.001+08:00

omg. rmb this?
miss this song so much.
after like 2 years plus later.
the meaning is totally different.

remember when we just got together,
and he said he likes this song.
because of the title.
so cheesy.
i was like eww but aww.
we were like retards, cos we're like dumb and we didnt know what to do being in a r/s
so we just like hang around at esplanade on saturdays.
good times.
until that lazy ass stopped his guitar lessons.

k, so that's not the point.
wenjun.
he NEVER EVER listens to the lyrics of songs.
honestly.
he looks and the title, likes the tune, maybe learns it on the guitar.
and thats him.
and i was like staring at him back then, do you ever listen the the lyrics?
and he was like umm.. nope.
recently he kept singing grenade also
different meaning dudee.
haha

yeah, feel so sad after watching the mv again.
gna treasure wenjun fatbottom more from now.
later he say he die i dont care.
drama mama.

btw, when he hit me yst, i clawed him.
(i dont have nails )
and he's like boo hoo my arm is broken.
-.-

2012-02-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

IM SO TIRED.
);

okay dad's fine.
infact he brought me to eat indian food after we went back.
haha.
and i bought him apple juice and he was like, nahhh dowan . so sweet.
and 5 mins later it was gone.

so.. i wanted to do work this afternoon but i was so tired i fell asleep.
feel guilty now.
and plus i went to ikea with fat butt da just now in the evening.
he said he's been transfered to tuba.
i tried really hard not to look surprised or discouraging.
it's okay anw.
new experiences. since im out of the band line anw.
so we went to ikea and we feasssssssst.
asshole guy.
he like pulled my bag just to make me walk slowly.
i nearly fell and we started hitting each other.
in public.
yes.
and because of that, he said i should act more like a girl.
he should act more like a guy please.
gay shiat.
and we feast.
crazy. we bought like so much.
cake , another cake, donuts, meatball, salmon, wings, drinks and cinammon bun.
woo cinammon !
that was the first thing i ate.
of which i was full afterwards.
and da finished off my 3 pieces of meatball left, wings, and yeah everything else.
and we went shopping ~
not so.
was forced to get mom the toilet brush.
3 of it.
so wierd.
and i bought my towels (O:
i can finally bathe yayy.
okay hahaha kidding.

and yeah home sweet home.
im so tired seriously.
the fml kinda thing right?
i have gened at 8am tmr.
SATURDAY. GENED.
WAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
stupid photo essay.

im so tired.
need to bathe.

k bye.

2012-02-02T22:30:00.002+08:00

OMG?

OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOMGOOGMOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMG

GOMOGOMOGOMO

GOMO HAHA.

OKAYYYYY THE MOST STRESSFUL POINT OF MY LIFE IS OVER.
(O:
nah kidding.

eye candy replied my tweet hohoho.
musttt . tell. jessssssssssssssssssssss.

so shy.
hahahaha. k sorry.

y'know like during sec4 among han jess pokes and i
everyone had an eyecandy except me.
and i was considered wierd.
ok . cos like . found no one handsome?
ok sorry. hahha.
*pulls faceee* omg.
okay and then this sem......
hahhaha.

y'know i was saying he looks like taeyang and everything.
and then the moment he stepped into class im like OMG.
but he smokes and stuff. so sad.
nevermind!
how come i sound like some bimbotic teenager now.
hmm. im supposed to be calm and quiet.
*returns to self*
sum ting wong today.
like so happy i wont sleep.
teehee.

anw the other day, like long long long time ago
he wanted to borrow stapler.
and then i threw it to him and i couldnt like face him.
and juliani like LOL-ed at me all the way.
):
hahaha. sad person right.
i know.

and amanda was like OMG?! he followed you?
or he followed you back?!
and im like yeahhhhhhh (O:
*snorts*

okay okay back to reality.
so my dad is going for an operation tmr .
to blast off his kidney stones in his kidney (duh)
sounds cute right, i seen it before.
but it's like painful for him.
so good, that those evil stones would be blasted.

and thenn...
everyone's working, except me .
duh.
and stat's optional.
and yiyan's tired.
so im not going. and dad told me to go.
and im like, okay thenn
i dont know. i feel worried.
but it's like wierd.
after he kept going overseas, i found it harder to talk to him
and like words and actions harder to express my feelings or something.
so i have to wake up at 6am.
which is earlier by an hour than going for stats.
nvrmm. (:
i wish the best for my dad.
guys please wish for him too.

okay very humourous, dad.
he was like, okay ahh. if anything happens to me then you take care of the family k.
and , we go for big breakfast tmr!

here's a few things to summarise everything.

1. it's just a minor op, paps.
2. im the youngest in the family. my sisters are working. YER ASKING ME TO SUPPORT THEM?
3. you're supposed to fast. no food.

yep. my dad.
so gna bring my work to do i hope.

kinda having rashes a lil.
feeling so uneasy.
must be the stupid mini prawn da fed me.
make me sound like im a fish.
officially changing his contact name to fat butt.

bye.

2012-02-02T19:25:00.003+08:00

get what you want, and not what you need.

so what? happy now?

well okay,
so it's confirmed that dad is going to india next fri again for 3 months,
till may.
i beg your pardon? he just came bcak 12 days ago.
this is so freaking unfair.
and well, mom wants to go over to find him.
im okay. no prob.
she said BAGPACK.
cos it was my dream to go ALONE.
BAGPACK + MOM
you kidding me?
and sis and mom were talking about the dirty hotels , roads , trains and stuff.
and now she's having second thoughts already.
not that im doubting her ability or anything.
but i knew itttttttttt.
like eww me with the conditions.
but i think im okay.
im think.
and plus, really wna donate lotsa stuff.
dont think singaporean kids really needs toys from the church.
so yeah. im bring the ENTIRE bag of toys.
well, i still have cloudy and teddy.
so no worries for me.
dont know about the trip yet.

and the KL trip with sis?
think she's kinda feeling pissed and everything
i dont know.
and rosalind's going with her dad too.
so.. i hope things turn out okay.
or else i have a feeling i'll get dumped in a rubbish bag in india,
or kidnapped and left behind by my sister.
i'll miss you guise.

bye.

2012-02-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

wanna bang my head on the freaking wall now.

stupid shit.
i freaking hate you.

2012-02-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

wth.

im going to india in march.
nice life.

i want my old one back please.
stupid shiat.
so tired of even blogging about anything.
screw my life.
you and all your stupid lies.

nice one brudder.

2012-02-01T16:42:00.001+08:00

stupid projects.

and my dad's going to india for another 3 months next week.
what's wrong with the friggin company.

):

2012-01-31T18:19:00.001+08:00

k just gna ignore the 30 day thingy for now.
exam's coming, which sucks.
and i totally neglect this blog.
im so bad.
but yes no choice.

my life's a lil.
okay no it's very screwed up now.
everything in my life is officially disorganised.
i feel so lost and whatnot.
no sense of direction, dont know where to start from.
not starting my revision.
just generally everything is screwed up.
and i owe an apology to myself.
i have no idea where im heading for.
this is a sign for deepshiat.

i need to stay alive .

k bye.

2012-01-29T20:49:00.002+08:00

sorry blogger.
havent got a chance to update.
first time in so long i actually skipped blogging for a few days.

skipping to day 18 alr k.

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

so many of those.
where do i start from?

i dont know.

1. prolly wna get into a good uni after graduation. with my gpa, i'd prolly get kicked to no-where ville.

2. save up money for future use. like way ahead.

3. Sell sammy.

4. master fingerstyle guitar and uke so no one will look down on me.

5. Peace.

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talking about peace.
home sweet home.
well, home's always the best no matter what.
i actually just got home from malaysia.
went to da's house with sean tw and jx for 2 days.
dont really wna talk about it.
ended up going home, crossing over the border. alone.
life really sucks huh.

talk about friday.
went to meet classmates for house visit at yiuwah's.
with biyu yiyan danielle amanda lydia hongwei
and they gambled.
really .
all i can say is.
gambling is bad.
honest.
and then they went to timber for dinner.
pizza and drinks.
i drank apple martini for the first time.
okay it tasted like candy.
and just as i wanted to tell yiuwah how it tasted, there was some crappy burning after taste.
pizza was good , but had to go off early.
felt so blur, i texted yiuwah the wrong thing.
very odd.
i was fine after a warm water bath.
better than breezer from the other time i guess.
i gulped everything and turned red.

alright enough for today.
im really tired.
didnt study much and i feel really, really guilty.
now that there's no more band,
i can put that aside .
just hope i dont think too much about sammy.
really need to focus i guess.

bye.

2012-01-26T13:12:00.001+08:00

Bloody heart breaking k. Living in denial aye? Guess you brought my hopes up for nothing. Screw it. I ought to get shot for this

2012-01-25T20:01:00.001+08:00

Can i just stay here till i expire?

pretty tired of this crap.
i feel lifeless.

take everything. i dont need anything anymore.

2012-01-25T14:57:00.002+08:00

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

okay it's day 15.
im getting sick of this.
its so lame.
not going to give up something so simple anyways.
or else there is really no point in my existence.

1. Better Together- Jack Johnson
2. Because you live- Jesse macartney ( HAHAHA DAREN)
it's been in my songlist for 4 years now. nope, never sick of that gay song he intro-ed.
3. Yellow- Coldplay
4. Some malay song rosalind left in my songlist too. i dont know why i never seem to delete it.
it's been 3 years?
5. Da eum nal - Seungri's solo
6. Only One- yellowcard (HAHAHA DAREN AGAIN)
7. Paperweight from DearJohn
8. Apologise- Pixie Lott
9. She will be loved- Maroon 5
10. Time after time- javier colon

wierd shuffle list.
brings back so much memories,
because basically,
i never EVER remember to remove any unwanted songs.
and i never EVER EVER add any new songs.
so sad life right.
and im like listening to music 20hours everyday?
imagine what kinda crap im listening to huh.
i know.
one fine day i'll just stop listening to music.
someday..

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okay i officially got over last night.
too emotional abit ah.
y'know venus texted me out of no where to ask if i were okay.
so sweet right.
rarely have such people popping out at the down side of your life k.
feel so thankful. and much better.

some situation im in ,
just cant be explained or shared with others.
so like yeah, ouch me.
ouch.
feel like shouting.
haha. k im good.
gta go revise abit.
i seem to be drifting away because of MD.
and because i was sick.

god damn it, it's been more than a month hello.
WHY DO I STILL HAVE PHLEGMS.
i feel like coughing and crying.
i dont wanna go to school .
i wna rot at home for life.
and let my mom feed me.
okay i was lying about the feeding part.
im such an ass.
xiyu do you want a freaking future or not?
okay yes i want.

nevermind ~

bye .

2012-01-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

im affected.

im feel so affected.
i feel broken ,
the emotional pain just cant be explained.
why do i feel like this?
just because i cant put it to words, doesnt mean i havent got any feelings.

the feeling of betrayal or loneliness or something.
i constantly seek answers but tend to beat up on myself,
even if i could no longer make whatever it was that broke my heart.
comforting myself feels useless, or makes things even worse.
cos i tend to just push myself back into the position that i left.

where the hell am i going?
wish there was a helping hand.

im tired of waiting..

2012-01-24T15:22:00.000+08:00

SO CUTE I CAN DIE.
really forever alone.
im like watching kitty clips on CNY.
hurhur ~

2012-01-24T14:58:00.004+08:00

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

ignore the arms please.
my dad's so handsome.
kthxbye.

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MD yaw!

haha, trumpet section squeezing in the mini mirror in the dressing room .
literally squeezing.

so scary.
if you see it, you poop bricks.
k no lah. kidding.
so obvious.

ok so stay at home day tonight.

i finally finished my PLJ.

i dont know why my essays are ever short now a days.

sum ting wong.

but yeah.

518 words k.

enough. yaaayyy.

yeah. today's open house ah.

so my dad and sister's friends are coming over.

yawnn.

forever alone ah. bye. ):

k no. tmr stay at home part 2 !

yayyy!

need to catch up on alot of stuffs.

- dreamweaver

- bunkering

- econs

- gened project and ya da yada yada.

okay.

just hope i wont be alone this evening k.

k bye.

2012-01-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

dont think anyhow k.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

i dont know.
no one actually hurt me.
i dont know really.
im not the kind that bears grudges

so ,
dear so-so .
i wished we'd still keep in contact for a long long long time.
and i wished the friendship , relationship, and all the ships we had werent so fragile.
just because of our differences, doesnt mean we should distant ourselves.
maybe we just met at the wrong point of our lives,
but it wont make things any worse.

so yep,
no grudges .
no blaming no hurting no nothing,
i just wished things would be the same.
):

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okay today was a long day.
got up real early and went to the columbarium to visit mama.
really missed her alot, and wished she's still be here to celebrate CNY with us.
went back to the house, and it was rather empty.
no happiness no nothing, the atmosphere just felt so still.
jeez..

okay and then we went back home in the afternoon.
and i took a nap.
more than a power nap.
i slept like 4 hours . now im freaking awake k.
haha.
and then we went to my mom's side for dinner.
ended up eating junk and was too full for rice.
my grandpa like blur when he found out.
haha so cute right.
dont really know how to communicate with them.
wish i could tho..

okay so we got home .
and i slacked.
ok fine. i admit.
every CNY's the same.
it's my 17th year and im kinda sick of it alr.
/:
yawnss.
sad night tonight ah.

haha.
k bye.(:

2012-01-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one

hmm.
didnt really know much about blogger
and used to think it was dumb, cos i didnt get the idea of an online ''diary''
for the fact of the the countless attempts creating diary entries
maybe like after 2 entries the book will turn to junk.

so yeah i found blogger in 2007, when i was in sec 1.
and this blog has been constantly updated.
i admit i used to update crap.
im no better now, talking to myself and everything.
at least it's self entertainment k.
not sure if im going bonkus tho.

made a blog myself cos i wanted to be like huijuan.
we were then, blogging crap.
like , today so boring, i go school then go home slack. then bye kinda thing.
felt cool then.
and there was this tagboard thing remember?
it still exists but i removed mine cos it attracts attention.
and partly cos ppl read but dont comment or tag or anything.
which makes me feel like a sad person and a loner talking to myself.
so basically im living in self-denial aye?
yer think?

yeah and this was called dagalwif-a-brokensmile.bs
now i remember.
haha dayummm.
so although i changed links and whatnot cos i thought i'd be happy from then on and i was wrong,
nothing much else changed.
and the previous blog designs i had were basically creditted to huijuan and her sis.
smart ppl.
rmb about this egg blogskin, and some dumb tortoise blogskin.
and the recent one with the plain orange and white background created by huijuan's sis.
yep i loved that the most till i act smart and tried editing the stuff myself and deleted it by accident.
im so stupid. seriously.
so was forced to change to the norm blogskin from blogger.
yawns.
k done

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long day today.
i woke up at 1plus in the afternoon.
felt so naise to finally sleep till im done sleeping.
instead of having to be woken up.
stupid incomplete feeling.

and yeah i watched desperate housewives5 marathon.
sooo addicted.
it's so awesome.
like the only drama series i'll go for.
if u know me,i dont actually watch much teevee or get glued.
but shit happens occasionally.
and peeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwww. i threw the spring cleaning aside.
i watched it till 4pm.
so awesome.
every sunday have eh.
watch it with cousin last week.
she's glued to anything tho.
hope i rmb about it next sunday.

and then i started to spring clean.
within 2 hours i was done.
cool or wad.
im so cool ikr.
my room is neat.
yaaaay.
new bed sheet and stuff.
and i found ALOT of coins when i cleaned up.
now my cow box is half full.
im so positive right.
i said half full, not half empty.
k i should shut up.
i think it's because im real tired now.
like the using up all energy plus hyper part before i KO?
yep that part.
heh.

okay and went to eat dinner at longjohnsilver's
reunion dinner? hahaha.
so wierd. and the theater was empty.
loners.
movie was alright.
and went to walk around for awhile.
i feel like eating sweets now im so tired.
k back. sweeetts.

ok so going out tmr i guess.
CNY's not really my thing.

ahh too tired.

k bye.

2012-01-22T00:43:00.004+08:00

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuust niceee.

k these are the only MD pictures i have now.

MD is OVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEERRRRRR!

and it was better than i expected (:

i feel complete.

can leave in peace ah.

haha

jingyi and i

nora and i !

in nun clothing. hahaha

the pass with a freaking typo.

such a turn-off ! ):

like so memorable, then fail.

k try spotting the error.

soo. yes. MD is over.

really great great great great experience.

so many stuff happened.

cant mention all but i'll try.

so, began the day skipping stats lesson.

because i had LOA.

y'know the moment i didnt come, everyone started telling me that i've got alot to catch up.

i am dead.

will try my best to catch up during this break.

i promise myself.

headed for the band room and got everything moved.

took a bus there.

was so amazed by the dressing room.

it's so classy! hahaha.

but trumpet section in that mini room is a big nono right.

still managed to squeeze tho.

there was a toilet in the dressing room!

like umm.. 19 peeps plus alumnis sharing the room.

yep.

the dressing room's like half of a normal bedroom.

but still, imagine if you're the soloist or performer or smth.

it's lika boss kinda thing.

sorry, mountain tortoise here.

*waves hand*

actually remember performing at the NUS hall or smth in sec 3.

SPH isit? forgot. and they had bigger dressing rooms.

it was cool too, but like all the girls to one room and i was busy screaming then.

so yeah.

okay we had approximately 4 hours of break.

i mean i .

wth right.

went to slack at marina. really too free.

and we had so much time to shop for kwangyi and shimin's present.

i was so tired already then.

about 1pm?

yes. sleepy already.

and i already had bloodshot eyes by then.

so yumyumyum had short rehearsals.

i expected the hall to be bigger actually.

until i went on stage and like, k big enough. im scared.

so yeah,

i got a message from huimei that both thweni and her werent coming for the concert.

they paid for it alr tho.

felt so unsupported i could cry.

thats like 1/4 of my pillar.

really like to thank da, rosalind ( WOO ROSALLINNND!!!) , sean timmeh, sis , sis, mom and dad for coming. really appreciated it alot. (':

wish stuffys were there tho

and yeah dad finally came back to singapore after a month at india.

feel so relieved that he's safe.

rather awkward with him now.

dont know if i've changed or what.

i dont know really..

okay so yeah the performance started,

and minghui marvin asyraf and i only played at the 5th song.

so we went back to the dressing room to slack.

i honestly like the tuba peep's section piece.

so naisseeeee!!!!!!!!

wished they played it for me at korea on my birthday.

hahaha, k sorry.

anw. we had alot of fun back there.

cos there was this spotlight thingy.

and it was damn bright and hot.

i think i got blinded like 4 times.

sad life me.

and it was super .______________________________________________.

i was afraid i wouldnt sound flat.

and the room was dark.

so i saw this shiny trumpet and thought, oh well. just warm sammy up.

after 15 mins marvin disturbed me about warming sammy up.

and he said, sekali it's not urs.

and then im like, haha.

and then i looked at the saliva key.

OMG IT'S REALLY NOT MINE .

it was marvin's.

wthlolomgwtsbbqafk.

life sucks sometimes huh.

okay the performance went well, to me.

i didnt have much stage fright.

couldnt really see the audience.

and i liked to play the encore.

feel so proud of myself honestly that i didnt make much booboos

and life really sucks.

im like leaving and ending my passion.

and i finally learnt how to single tongue very fast.

._.

oh btwbtw,

there was an interval and i went to find them.

and da sean and rosalind stayed inside.

wth. inside no reception. i couldnt contact them.

i called dad and he said he lost mom and sis.

and i called sis she didnt pick up.

like so sad eh.

im like lost sad emo forever alone sheep.

everyone around me met up with their loved ones and stuff.

i stood in the middle of no where stonning.

sad person.

and then they had the last call that interval was over,

i finally spotted sis.

she chose to buy cookies and eat instead of finding me.

OMG. im so embarrassed.

after the concert i met up with da and sean.

and my mom was right, the safety pin will give way and pierce through me.

ok it didnt pierce through me thank god.

thank you so much.

i caught the safety pin that snapped on time and ran to the bathroom.

pheeww.

joel called and i met up with him.

JOEL FAN. the skinny tall stick guy.

ok it was rather wierd cos he was with kwangyi.

joel was my SL in sec sch, and kwangyi's my current.

and they were tgt.

and they both know weijuan, my pri school SL.

and all of them know the infamous angeline(MOM)

small world huh!

ok most importantly they know me k.

(: teeehee

okay so it ended and i didnt get to see rosalind ):

went supper with da.

not really.

he ate his dinner and i KO-ed beside his fries.

so sleepy eh.

my eyes were like bloodshot and small.

and i nearly fell asleep walking .

we hanged around till like 2am.

feel so tired still now

cos tooooooooooodaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy.

woke up early to meet da for shopping.

CNY shopping yah right.

he said to meet up early and whatever.

and he was late.

for like 1 and a half hours.

idiot guy .

ok and he gave me un-bear-ables gummies from the natural confectionary.

hahaha

so.. we went to walk around and buy his clothes.

you've got to listen to this.

all i bought was a mini sheep eraser from smiggle.

cos da bought this pencil cup for his pencils. -.-

and then the sheep were at the counter display.

couldnt resist . really.

i literally jumped and everything .

soo cuteeeee.

ok da bought it for me.

haha. and his expression like -_-

liar. he still played with it.

and we walked and we walked .

IM SO TIRED.

we didnt finish walking cos it rained

couldnt go to orchard central on time,

we wanted to buy couple shoe at VANS.

guess we'll give it a miss.

didnt send cousins off.

i miss them already.

they'll be back in august.

must meet up with them ):

all da's fault.

shop shop shop.

tsk. hahaha ok no.

i said it myself that i wanted to accompany him

and we went to meet my family for reunion dinner.

he came too omg.

haha. awkward a lil.

and yeah. quite full cos we ate junk before dinner.

whoops. okay after dinner we went back to my house.

da and i slacked. we played benny(uke) and the guitar.

like crazy.

we just crapped. and played.

quite fun tho.

first time im not sleepy or bored or anything.

and he ate the cookie that sis bought.

it was for me. >:[

ahwell.

okay so my dad sent him home.

and tada im here .

whoa very long post.

thought we were going to...

ah nevermind.

let it be . (:

2012-01-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

crap. i think i skipped a day.
):
k this is for yesterday.
so i can answer 2 questions teehee.

hmm.
Happy- english pop songs/emo songs.
sad- violin pieces/rock/ instrumental band songs
bored- english pop songs/emo songs
hyped- emo songs/ instrumental songs
mad- put the earpiece on and off the ipod.

yep. that's me for your info.

2012-01-19T11:18:00.002+08:00

DAY9: SOMETHING PROUD I DID IN THE PAST FEW DAYS. I JUST FINISHED MY PRESENTATION YAW. YAYYYY. literally lifting one of the boulders off my chest. Just proud of myself i didnt die. Having band tonight, so wont be blogging. So scared eh tmr MD alr. Sammy, please sell yourself I beg you. ): i feel so stressed out now. Urgh. K bye

The Lion King - Can You Feel The Love Tonight

2012-01-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

aww (,: rosalind will cry if she watches this.
commmfem

2012-01-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

okay.
so ITB's over.
there wont be any such stupid test with the laggy comps in our comp lab.
seriously, even sec school's better.
they should've just let us use our own laptops and do the lockdown browser thingy.

and everyone was super pissed .
idk. i like some happy idiot in the middle.
cos it was funny.
i mean like dont panic and everything and you wont be pissed at yourself.
so yeah. nazeer sat beside me. and sebas.
and it was hilarious.
cos he like gave up, and went twitter.
whud?? hahhaha okay lah at least he attempted abit in the end.
and amirul sat infront.
he was like blur as well.
and y'know what he did?
he just copy the demo sample of the qn and pasted.
so cool uh haha.

and i have presentation tmr most probably.
im going to die ):
okay lah not so bad.
stage fright? IM OVER IT BABEH.
im gna perform at esplanade. nth can make me scared-er.
OKAY IM LYING. SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE.
):
howhowhowhow okay later practice.
i talk to teddy.
he listens and he smiles .
even if u beat him.
cute guy.
ok bye.

TRUMPET HOW.
FML. (fries make lies)
):

2012-01-18T11:56:00.002+08:00

DAY8: SHORT GOALS FOR THIS MONTH AND WHY

so obvious right

1. Get well soon.

Ive been sick for nearly 3 weeks now and i still have phlegm in my lungs.
its really affecting me.

2, Find a buyer for Sammy. im desperately freaking out by now.
i think of him in my dreams.

3.Get MD over and done with.

hopefully it would be a great experience. that would be fulfilling the stupid PLJ as well.

4. Get on track with studies.

i seem to be so distracted and everything these days.
gna catch up during the CNY period.
MUST.

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okay done.
having fireworks test later.
*crossfingers*
gna be damn relieved once it's over.
its at 320.
so duh i woke up late today.
like finally.
couldnt have a good sleep for the past few days since ..
okay since last tues night.

the phlegms are so irritating btw.
it's like stuck deep down and i have cough real hard and real bad for it to come out.
eeeeeee.
k.
gna do work now.

jaron not coming for the concert.
idiot guy.
but sean's coming instead.
woohoo!~
bet he'll like say its boring.
and when he was bored the last time, he started shouting ''john'' and ''dick''
instead of my name.
so sad right. k fine.

da asked me to go shopping with him on saturday.
you kidding me?!
the thing i hate the most to do with him is shopping.
HE'S SO BORING.
not him being bored. as in him being a bore.
he'll walk in to a random shop. say wow. look at the shorts and say, ok no.
then walk out.
he'll just end up at top man .
*yawnn.*
shall just pull him direct to top man and dump him there huh.
heh heh.
but i hate crowds. ):
everyone, like him, is gna shop for last minute stuff.
poor me.

k bye.

2012-01-17T16:02:00.004+08:00

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

hmm.
i guess it'll be that cheese face below.
(left)

well, i guess it's cos it's both of our first relationship.
which makes it worse.
HAHA.
i mean, yeah.
c'mon man, i thought he was nice, un-gay, a fine gentlemen, respectful and humble.
turns out he was none of the above k.

and , if you knew me right from the start, you'd know.
i was hot and short tempered, childish (VERY), vulgar, loud, scream-y, impatient and stuff.
till i met him. i guess i had to stop.
and realised everything wasnt about me afterall.( duh )
omg i was so stupid. so embarassing.

and bladdy hell, looks can be so deceiving k.
dont fall for it.
not like i thought that he was handsome.
eww. gay.
that ass is so hot tempered as well.

im not saying im good now.
i am not , obviously.
but at least he changed me to be a better(slightly) person.
and gave me a better perspective of the rest of the world.
and his acceptance and impatience and gay-stuff.
the other day i was feeling rather bad for us,
cos we hardly meet anymore these days, including the holidays.
and he promised to meet up often.
and he kept it.
i love him.

so gna embarass him now.
milk face.
thank god im keeping my own milk-mouth face.

im from the forces of eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeviiil ~

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i overslept today.
omg. i think i didnt even set my alarm last night.
i was so tired i KO-ed on my bed at 12plus.
i really cant take it having band on mondays omg.
i have school at 8am the next morning.
plus school starts at 8am on monday as well.
urgh. i hate this.
okay so yeah i couldnt wake up.
biyu called me at 720 .
instant resuscitation.
okay no. haha.

okay dreamweaver sucks.
really gna work on it.
so restless and exhausted and bored , i practically gave up for 2.5 hours of IT just now.
ended up listening to sungha jung. awesome guy.

initially went to fc3 with biyu amanda and yiyan this afternoon.
saw someone. and the the seats were so close,
i begged to go somewhere else.
k wtvs.

im so tired.
and i just altered my MD gown myself !
hope it's not too obvious cos it's really huge ):
and i really need to sell sammy now.

so many things running through myhead...
feel like im gna blow up.

1. SAMMY. *priority* by this friday.
2. Extra MD ticket cos jaron's not going. urgh.
3. Fireworks
4. Dreamweaver
5. Port Ops chapter 9
6. Stats chap13
7. Econs chap7
8. Polish sammy.
9. Pack room. DAD'S COMING HOME THIS FRI

bye

2012-01-16T13:04:00.002+08:00

DAY 6: FAVOURITE SUPERHERO. THORRRRRR!!!! So easy. Cos he's hot. As in the movie thor. Not the pathetic comic. Heard there's a second movie coming out. So hurrayyyy! *gives eye brows* okay. Having band tonight. Gna be so tired i need to promise myself to wake up for the 8am class for dreamweaver or i am dead. Having IT test on friday. So sad ): okay suddenly feel so excited for the concert. Eh. Forgot to mention my sheep hair is gone. Amanda says i look like cleopatra. And i was like wuddd. Felt a lil oconplimented at first. Then i googled images for cleopatra and $&@!?&$?#% so ugly. Hahaha. K bye

2012-01-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

hahaha
yeahhhh. (Y)

learnt the beggining verse of more than words on guitar.
now my pinky is purple.
wts.
butttttttttttttttttttt.
yayayyayyay

now i wont have to feel like sleeping when da plays that song.
usually i'll like yawn.
and stuff. cos it's really boring.
and he says its romantic.
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
k. haha
suddenly feel like laughing at that cheese face.

okay bye.

2012-01-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

DAY 5 : Picture of where i've been too.

okay i've lost the taiwan and hongkong pics.
so yeah.

this is korea with the band peeps.

and this is in phuket.

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k . i am sooooooooooo frustrated.
cousin's like blasting music.
and using my itouch.
and complaining she wants to go swimming.
omggggg.
._.

k quick go home.
i need to study.
im so tired.
slept at 6am cos i spent the whole night talking to claire.
the other cousin.
okay it was kinda fun.
but i dont rmb knocking out.
haha.
oh, and gail jumps on my teddy all the time.
feel like crying.
and it's so friggin hotttttttttt.

btwbtwbtw,
i bought han this angel iphone cover.
angel as in , stich , but pink.
so gay.
and i spend my entire life savings . honest.
and then jess tweet me.
Y'KNOW WHATTTTTTTTT.
she bought the same cover as i did.
and gave it han as well.
it was stitch.
i feel like kicking han zomg.
my monehhhh.

hahaha .
and we bluff bluff friend her .
me and jess bluff bluff friend her only.

so tired.
):
and troubled.
sammy has to go now.
really.
im left with $1.40
for the next month because i bought tickets for my family.
i even bought one extra for you.
but nevermind i guess, dad's gna come for it.

bye

Adele- Don't You Remember

2012-01-14T14:04:00.001+08:00

...

2012-01-14T13:07:00.001+08:00

Trying to live without you.

2012-01-14T12:26:00.004+08:00

DAY 4: A HABIT I WISH I DIDNT HAVE.

SO MANY.
umm.
1. procrastination?
like now?
cos i have stupid ITB test on wednesday.
and i got STUCK.
so sad right.

2. Having to be in bed at least 2 hours before i fall asleep.

3. Habit of being sticky to certain people. which is not good.

4. Habit of forgetting to smile at times.

5. Biting my lips when im nervous.
haha it used to be the reason why my front teeth protrudes.
and then i joined band, and it was okay alr.

okay .
so . i have stomach flu now.
damn it xiyu. wth cant you get better.
i think i have blogged for at least 2 weeks that im sick.
whatever seriously.
okay why i am i whatever-ing myself.
): i feel so sad.

okay met up with da , sean, jx, tw, bk, and eryan.
sorry and HAN.
i forgot. i think. hahaha
yeah and we went to fish and co .
the longest meal i ever had i think.
seriously.
we sat down for like 30 mins.
wait for jx, and then han came.
and then wait for the orders for 20 mins.
and then jx sean they all went to the atm for 20 mins.
and then we ate for like 1 hour
i drank water, and when i started on my pasta i was full alr.
da ended up eating my serving as well.
oink. (O:
okay yah,and now i have tummy upset.
oh, and we went to the park and went home.
their so called lepak.-.-

then da and i went to sit down and drank milk.
hahaha.
milk= beer k.
rmb watching kogepan at the poolside.
oh well.
(O_O) <-- kogepan's face.
and i then i went home.

today's a long day.
cos im going over to grandma's house later.
it's her birthday today.
my grandparent's birthdays are on random days really.
no lah, its like according to the chinese calendar.
ok so after that my cousins are coming to stay over.
the claire and gail thing.
they're leaving next week.
but i seriously need to study.
need to entertain that lil brat.
cute brat.
she sleeps later than me k. wth.

ok bye.

2012-01-13T09:29:00.011+08:00

DAY 3: Picture of Me and My Friends.

Band peeps in Korea !

Year1 class peepss

Pictures can hor?

i never cheat wad.

MY ROSALIND <3

MELCAMP

4e2 !

Last day of school! chleo and huijuan

BVMB stttttsttttttt.

Artpeepss

3e2 (:

okay done.

feel so emotional.

damn it.

get a hold of yourself woman.

2012-01-12T16:26:00.001+08:00

Day 2: Meaning behind my blog name.

Okay. So my blog's called th-cathatesfish right?
cos i used to play with some fat orange cat in sec2.
Initially my blog url was dagal-wif-brokensmile or smth.
I forgot where the - was placed.
And well, i met that cat.
And i bought cat food , tuna flavour, for it and it didnt like.
Waste my money damn it.

Oh. And chleo started calling me grey.
I forgot why.
Grey is her fat cat at home.
Perhaps cos i was/is fat.
And i hate fish.
So yes, here you go.
Day 2 of the 30day challenge. (:
im like typing this on my itouch now cos i just finished the test,
and i have no where to go till i meet da at 530 and then have band at 630pm.
So sad right.
And yeah.

Have got mixed feelings now,
cos i dont know what's on your mind and what you're thinking about.
I keep thinking it the wrong way. Hello, im not dirty minded.
As in wrong.
Meaning, i cant forget about us k.

Okay yah feeling so sleepy.
And im still sick ):
poor me.
Cant wait for concert.
Bye.

ADELE - 'Make You Feel My Love'

2012-01-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

aww. )':
all time favourite since sec2.
i feel for her...

and she's so pretty k !
no perfect body or whatever but who cares.
pretty.

i love her.
k bye

2012-01-11T19:14:00.005+08:00

DAY 1 : Picture of myself and 15 interesting facts about me.

ok this is damn recent.
honest.
about 13 years ago?
:}

okay facts facts.

1. i am indeed, very good in chinese.
2. i love animals. especially huge dogs and sheep.
3. i love sheep so much, i have sheep hair, sheepy pencil case, sheep converse shoes, and a sheep shirt, and of course wooly undies (O:
4. I talk to myself , alot. When im blogging, when im studying, when im watching teevee, and with friends, when no one responds.
5. I love music. Have played, or attempted and failed the following:
- trumpet (current)
- ukulele
- guitar
- violin (fail)
- e-flat horn
- cornet in eflat
- cornet in bflat
- flugelhorn
- euphonium
- recorder ( HAHAHA)
6. I dont sing. I dont sing anywhere. Not even in the shower, because im afraid the neighbours will hear.
7. I have spoilt approximately 11 earpieces/headphones/earphones in my entire life. and counting.
8. I like the colours brown, orange, red. and brown.
9. I am EMO, and i rot and stone.
10. My natural expression is literally ._. because others say i look sad. and that's because im stonning. and i have small eyes.
11. I dont use vulgarities anymore. At least no F-words and such. I stopped because i thought i had to grow up. no link right? okay, there are exceptions still.
12. People laugh when i attempt to joke. Not because im funny, but because of my stupidity.
13. I bite when i cry.
14. My ambition is to be a veterinarian.
15. ~~I like stuffys.~~ eh dont bother google-ing please. haha.

Phe-ew. done.
k so satisfied that i got to stay at home.
i love rotting.

2012-01-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

HOLY MOLLLLLLLLLY!
haha.

k so random.
used to think that ppl that did 30 day challenges were stupid.
then i think.
i actually blog everyday -.-
not so stupid alr k. so yay.
and i guess it'll give a better idea of who i am?
rather than some person whom talks to herself.
okay yes. i am a person that talks to myself k.

2012-01-11T15:46:00.003+08:00

so drowsy.
yes im still sick.
and i feel bad.
no i feel worse.
i keep coughing.
just wish i can ask myself to shutup k.

i attempted to play sissy's guitar.
apparently i failed.
i blue-blacked my own ring finger.
i dont know why.
so pain k. ):
you and me by lifehouse is a nice song.
): damn it.

okay.
so i went to school for awhile just now.
and bought soap on the way home.
yay soap ! (O:

today's danielle's birthday.
why is everyone so old.
so many january babies.
no fair.
happy birthday danielle ! (:
hope she get 4.0 all the way k.
haha

having band tmr again.
think we're playing jap grafitti 14.
hmm. prefer the disney's tho.
oh well.
feeling so sick ):
damn it.

ok lah bye

2012-01-10T22:55:00.003+08:00

hai.
so sleepy.
and im still sick.
yah boring.
im sick, next day sick, and still sick.
ikr.
feel so stupid today cos i keep coughing.

okay ,
so.
i skipped IT lesson today.
feel so bad.
promise to catch up tmr.
cos i took the mini flu meds last night.
the yellow super drowsy one y'know?
and i slept at 1 plus last night.
so i couldnt wake up at 630am.
duh?
yeah im so mean :{
at least i made it for econs and port ops just now.

met da after that
he wasnt late, for the first time.
so proud of him.
coughs.
first time.
in 2.5 years k.
and we went to baskin robins to eat icecream.
he kills me lor.
brought me to kfc last weekend.
and now icecream.
and i ate spaghetti.
and meatballlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.
crazy guy. and he made me cry.
cos he scold me. so stupid.
hahaha.
ended up cursing each other again.

haha
okay actually i think im having a fever.
): feel hawwwwt.
thanks thanks.
*vomits*

okay lah.
gna do proj tmr for awhile in school.
bet we'll finish in half an hour to an hour.
so yeah.
so sleepy.

zzz.
mixed feelings k.
gna forget about it.
i feel not okay now.
so how?

bye.

2012-01-09T17:00:00.002+08:00

haha cute stalker :P

okay anww.
im back home.
and have to get back to school in an hour.
for band..
band's changed to mon and thurs.
same as someone.
oh well ~

okay umm.
feel sick still today.
especially with the direct aircon and everything.
cant complain hor. ppl in sec sch no aircon.
haha.
so mean.

eh oli got back her results.
and she did well ! to me.
real proud of her.
and hopefully her dad allows sammy !
holy molly.

feel so tired.
._.
okay i went home cos i have no money to eat.
bad state right.
hope sammy will get an owner.
aid me lots lots.

okay bye.

We are the world(Symphonic Prelude)

2012-01-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

omg just randomly clicked on band songs on youtube.
so nerd (O:
k this is like the best song i've ever listened.
listen can cry (,:

rmb bvmb played it during sec3 end of year.
i had the flugelhorn solo.
awwman. really miss that.
but anw we screwed up. hahaha.
as usual. but so memorable k.

2012-01-08T14:07:00.004+08:00

hi.
this is me killing my cousin.

nah kidding.
seriously gna miss her big big time.
her name's claire.
she's 4 years my junior.

jeez.
when we were young,
like p4 and she was like 6 years old,
our family used to hang out alot.
and went on road trips tgt.
and so. my job then, was to entertain her.
she was damn spoilt and everything.
and such a bugger.
but so cute.
but irritating.
ikr. that feeling of having someone killed in your mind,
then after that crying cos you feel bad about it.
okay yeah that's me. im so mean ):
okay so she was real spoilt and everything.
but after she had a sis around 6 years ago, she became better.
and i liked her .
*grins*
ok. sorry. not like loike.
as in loike.
yeah. she's nice and everything now.
too bad it didnt last much.
she's migrating to perth on 20th.
that's like the SPSB concert. and she cant make it.
so yeah.

gna miss that stinking little brat i once knew.
definately.
and well, her lil sis.
she's like hyper and stuff.
so i couldnt grab her to take a pic.
abit scary tho.
like she's an ipad and galaxy tab freak y'know.
holy moly.
like last year when she turned 5,
she had to wear specs.
and it was like 300-400 deg.
freaking scary.
love her tho.

and like at 1am yst da told me he was below my block.
yer kidding?!
so late.
but yeah.
he's been having fun and gaying with his friends
feel so .
speechless.
or smth.
idk lah.
feel like kicking him.
ok i alr did.
and i drove again.
like a hundred meters.

okay now i've got alot of work.
crap. cos i procrastinated.
im so bad !

and yeah. kinda sick still.
it's a lil worse.
i mean, on fri it was like runny nose.
running? runny? k runny cuter.
and now its like clogged. choked. smth.
my boogey's like dark green with a lil blood.
ouch right.
and like my mom scolded me.
for not going to the bathroom to clear my nose.
wth?

da's school starting anw tmr.
he's gna die for sure.
he's like sleeping at like 3-4am everyday.
crazy.
okay bye.

bye claire.
hope she'll be safe and not turn into an australian ah lian.
if it exists.

AND FRANCESCA's COMING BACK TO SPORE THIS SATURDAY.

from perth too. coincidence huh

woohooo!

it's been like 4 years.

cant believe we still keep in contact huh?

im like the only one.

dont know why.

i think im stupid?

haha.

i dont seem to rmb any bad stuff she did to me.

all the back stabbing activities and whatnot.

oh well.

so excited to meet her !

k bye

P.S. when i read the mail i felt like killing myself honestly.

wth am i thinking man. xiyu gta wake up k woman.

clear your mind. plsplsplsplsplsplpslpspslplss.

(*#)*(#*)@*#@

no bad thoughts k.

2012-01-07T12:48:00.003+08:00

okay sorry .

forgot about the blog for at least 24 hours.
anwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

i skipped stats lesson yst cos i felt so sick.
then da asked me out.
asshole. no sense of sympathy or love or anything.
he made me cross over to malaysia , alone.
so freaking scary.
i was so scared, too scared until when he asked if i was scared.
i said, no ._. <--- poker face.
then he was like , oh, okay.
-.-

yeah so we went to buy his lil bro's birthday present.
and then went to buy rice.
and went to his house
to watch tayong dalawa. hahaha.
ok we caught half of it.
and then we went to kfc.
kfc k.
im sick. we went kfc.
and then i died.
k no. then we went for dinner.
and yeah it was okay.
and he drove me home.
omgwthwts.
along the highway he stopped to let me drive.
like so fun k seriously.
apparently the, i wont take my licence until i can afford car thing failed.
omg i want my licence.
ok lah not really. but it was fun tho.
he was like, 60 oni ah. only can drive until 60.
BOOOOOOSSTTTTTTTTTT.
he got so scared. teeeheee.
and then we stopped over to buy m&ms and poop drink.
y'know the yoghurt drink that aids digestion thing.
VERY effective. haha k.

so tired when i got home.
just knocked out.
this morning when i woke up i felt like dying seriously.
my throat hurts big big big time.
thanks to the nuggets huh.
and yeah the peanut m&ms.
i swear the m&ms peeps are cheapos seriously.
they cut cost, and increase price.
i rmb it used to be like 90cents- $1.10.
now sp sells like 1.80?
and the portion like half.
everyone in my class just turns to buy NIPS.
yeah for the fact it sounds wrong.
and the quantity, not quality.
the peanut's like bitter and stuff.
but it's like 90cents, and 4 times as much.
will have the eat-until-dont-wna-eat. A.K.A jaw pain feeling.
yeah i know.
half satisfied.

okay so.
bunkering lecturer reopened the quiz.
thank god seriously.
THANK YOU.
i didnt do 3 quizes out of the total 6.
sucks to be me huh.
the whole holiday i was like OH CRAPPPP FMLFMLFMLFMFLML.
but, phew.

okay results were okay.
generally Bs?
but not satisfying

cousins are coming to stay over tonight.
for the first time, no matter how irritating they can be,
i do want this.
cos they're migrating to australia for good.
on the 20th jan.
so today will prolly be the last time im seeing them.
gna miss them real bad.
okay im like speaking before they come.
perhaps i'll regret it later.
so mean right.
yeah.
one is 5 this year, and the other 14.
sisterss.
but the lil one's cute, but irritating.
everything you ever say, she'll just reply whateverrrrrrrr.
-.-
idiot.
feel like pulling out her teeth.
she's bohhgay now tho.
which makes it even more fun.

ok then.
bye.

so tired.

2012-01-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

okay so the expired cough syrup didnt kill me afterall.
dayummn.

feeling real sick.
and sis just fed me chips.
so evil.

so yah.
i took out the bottle of cough syrup in the fridge.
very sure no one touched it for at least 5 years.
around 10ml left, and that was the proper dossage.
so oh well. i poured it out, saw that it was lumpy,
stared at it, told my mom.
she was like , NO LAH you talk nonsense.
k fine i drank it.
eh seriously.
one of the worst experiences in my life.
like bits of stuff inside.
and bladdy hewww i swallowed.
how stupid.
and yeah expiry in june 2011.
not so bad i guess.
at least it still feels like 2011 to me.
so i guess my body prolly accepted it too.
so sweet.

stay home today cos it's wednesday.
like wednesdayyyyyyy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah i dont have lessons as usual.
which is good.
hope im well tmr.
dont wna spread the germs to sammy,
and then spread it back to myself again.
thats dumb.

gna sort of start thinking about the port ops presentation now.
like abit scared. cos im doing the intro.
on chhhhhhhhhhiinnaaahh.
no choice.
k nth to be afraid of. i think.
holy moly im so scared ):

k lah bye.
feeling so lethargic now.

i slept at 1130 last night,
woke up at 9am today.
pretty wierd.
cos i was like OMG im so awake k.
and then i took the NEW cough syrup.
and knocked out at 10am.
and woke up at 1.
but feel like sleeping again leh.
btw, i read the syrup label.
side effects are insomnia?
you kidding me?

k bye

2012-01-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

blood brothers.

warning : VERY naggy post ahead.

just wna get this off my chest once and for all.
then i'll forget it.
afterall, my blog. (duh)

stupid events, resentment, nose excrement(water form)
feeling really sick now.
is it the weather or isit just me damn it.

and im really physically and mentally exhausted.
dont HAH me.
i know it's the first day of school.
but my bio clock's real screwed.
somehow i couldnt sleep at all last night.
i mean besides the fact that han told me she banged her head on the fridge and cried.
not sure if it was her birthday
but i had a good laugh. a best laugh actually.
so typical of her.

and yeah today i had lessons at 8am.
and got back 3 MST results today.
not quite what i expected i guess.
in a bad way.
wanted to do way better.
but what can i expect.
little progress at a time k chua xi yu.
yeah and by the time im year 3 my cummulative will be like 3.0 with progress.
and i'll be kicked elsewhere.
was really really tired just now seriously.
when i got home i was so tired i cried.
bladdy stupid.
ok i didnt cry cos im tired stupid.
nvrm.

some issues going on.
so what? just have to live with it.
just because you give in and not gain enough respect from certain people,
especially your loved ones, doesnt mean i should just flare right?
it's not like they care actually.
i mean although its my bf or smth,
doesnt make him any better .
and well, while throwing a stupid fit and myself,
i came out with my new year's resolution.
forgive and forget.
so proud of me right?
bet y'all like , ... ._. duh.
yeah. and i wished everyone in the world , which includes me,
will just forget about the resentment and just appreciate every single mini thing we have.
i like that.
OMG I HAVE A NEW ERASER MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.
k not so mini.
k ya maybe that .

yeah. cant believe i actually had those bad thoughts.
so disappointed in myself.
classmates were talking about new year stuff today.
about how much money their parents gave them to buy clothes and what not.
i honestly honestly went blank.
cos umm i never had money from my parents just to buy clothes.
for new year or anything.
well, at least my mom made sure i didnt have any thoughts.
she'll be like, )(*)(*)(*@#@%#$!@ you have so many clothes and blah blahhh.
those were my sister's bras mom.
no kidding.
yeah and i felt a lil angry and of course jealous, doh.
like so unfair people get to spend hundreds without having to feel the pain of where that amount came from.
it's not that they're rich or anything.
i dont know.
but it felt the norm.
and i felt so stupid.
had the urge to just barge in to my mom's room and reach my hands out.
so bad right.
yeah guess i managed to slap myself damn hard to reality.
literally.
i dont need those stuff to be honest. its all material.
it's not like im in a bad condition any huh?
i got the freaking nerve to blog with my own laptop.
and if i said i dont have anything,
i promise any random person reading this can just slap me and call me bastard.
not so hard hor.
i just want my dad back here

so, blood brothers.
get it?

ok done.

SHOOT ME PLEASE
IM SO TIRED
i nearly fell asleep eating my potatoes for dinner

ok bye

thank god for the no lesson day tmr

bye

2012-01-02T20:42:00.006+08:00

It's 2nd january ! (AGAIN)
some unknown person's birthday.
cant rmb.
oh .. ohh...

happy birthday han !
it's okay, she'll read this on wednesday.
if she ever reads this.
i know im so sweet and everything.
dont even know if she'll ever read this,
cos perhaps she doesnt know it's her birthday yet today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
this is us, eating dinosaur rocks on the last day of school.
so memorable right.
with the 4e2 logo on my head and some stupid heart on yours.
doesnt make sense.
think this is the best photo of you so far.
you look so.... pretty.
you look like the dinosaur mama eating her own eggs.
and i most definately look like myself. (duh)

this is us at coffee bean where you attempt to go on diet
and end up sharing my sandwhich.
so nice.
i love my hair omg.
cos i cut my fringe myself.
(notice how you're always the one holding the cam)

this is us at HAN's cafe, after o lvls.
stoning and eating ur kaya toast.
because we only had a budget of $5.60
(total combined amount left in our pockets)

this is us, during speech last year . with huijuann.
and your girl BRIGADE uniform.
too bad u werent wearing ur cancer hat.
it'd be nicer.
our last day of cca.

okay this is sec3.
the i-thought-you-were-damn-nice period.
i'd like force you to sit beside me during amath period
cos i think i fell in love with u.
umm.
and we'd like crap and everything.
and every time i'd like wish for you to reveal ur diary bit by bit.
which was kinda funny.
yeah that was all the fun before everything happened once upon a time.

this was actually the day i found out you were true blonde. and bimbotic.
we took this pic with my phone camera.
which was real cool for me last time.
cos phones werent allowed and all.
im so cool.
okay the part was, it was taken at a different angle.
and you were like, OMG WHY THE MOUSE EXPAND UNTIL SO BIG.
IT LOOKS LIKE A REAL MOUSE
umm. yeah.

eh. wierd button nose i had there.

thank goodness for the plastic.

no k kidding.

guess what?

i think i lost the ECP ''4e2 outing''

the day we went ECP ourselves.

just the two of us.

and you told others about the 4e2 outing.

woman living in self-denial. but oh well.

that's han.

i lost the photos omg ! ):

kkkkkk love you han.

bye.

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huh. school's starting tmr.

8am.

the worst part, IT on tues as usual for 4hours.

i hate my life seriously.

k bye

2012-01-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

okay yeah.
new year ! boring day.
spent my entire day cleaning up my room.
now its neat.
and sis say she can hear the echo.
coolio.

okay i havent quite updated any new year resolutions right?
i havent been actually thinking to be honest.
such a bum.
k gna start thinking now.
think think think. nope. nth.

anw, stuffys replied the mail.
like so happy, and of course contented.
hopefully this would be a better year after the screw up year i had a day before.
i mean yeah, who doesnt say that every year.
so imma say it too.

school's starting in like 1 day.
i feel like crying seriously.
omgomgomgg.
no really. i feel like crying , literally.
can just rip my hair off.
no cannot, i just did frizzy hair treatment

k. tmr im gna stone in bed for 5 hours.
must make the time worth horr?

ok bye

2012-01-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS.

it's 2012 and i just had my bath.
i feel so good.
but my room's still messy, bed sheets unchanged,
toys and pillow smelly, bags and shoes not washed.
yep that's about .
so practically, it's 2012.
nth to be surprised about except for the fact that i smell nice.
( currently )

and so yesterday i woke up pretty early.
for my bioclock , yes.
like 10am ?
holy moly 10am .
so early k.
you guys can just watch me die or self-destruct when school reopens.
went to school to meet danielle and yiuwah for econs project.
bladdy hewwwwww?
was wondering for weeks why they werent panicking or whatsoever with the deadline.
i didnt see the deadline as 20th jan.
ttttttttoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot.
hahhaa
okay and then i was really tired and stoned throughout
and went home to stone.
wanted to nap but no time.
and i bathed and met da.
at like 4pm.
asshole, he's always late.
sis say i should just walk away if a guy is late.
why didnt i think of that throughout the 2years and 4months.
i ought to.
she's like bladdy ruthless and heartless and whatever she can be to guys.
but i ought to learn
okay so we went like 313 again.
omg. i just went there 2 days ago
and yeah went to ''shop''
so boring to shop with that guy.
we went h&m . like nth.
for him. idiot guy.

wanted to go to GJ with rosalind to find JH and rum.
really miss them alot, really.
but i jeez, i was so freaking tired i could sleep standing.
and da dragged me to some stupid movie.
MARGIN CALL.
the stupidest movie. ever.
over its the 2nd stupidest.
the stupidest was when i watched with dq and huivoon in sec2
some show called dan's life or smth.
practically showing the life of that guy.
which is ...
and plus the awkwardness.
ok yes, i nearly fell asleep yesterday.
stupid movie.
waste my time.
i feel like kicking da.
ok no kidding.
ok maybe abit.
damn it i wanted to watch new year's eve.
so so so sad.

today i met up with him again.
cos he's abit sick and he acts like a girl and acts like he's dying.
he has flu.
and i get it too now.
damn it .

okay and just now i went with sis to eat icecream.
and a lil bit of fries .
and IM SO TIRED damn it.
someone save me.
feel like knocking out alr.
but gna force myself to send one last email to him.
before i give up.

okay so happy new year.
bye.

2011-12-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

HOLY MOLLY.

went out with my pokes today!!!
after 098120398038131 years eh.
we had so much fun omg.
ok we took the long long bus ride in the afternoon.
talked a lil.
miss pokes so much.
she said i changed anw.
i nvr lor.

okay yeah.
so we went to eat burger.
so naise. its damn cool.
gna bring da to eat there next time.
but he doesnt like burgers.
sissy.
he only eat chinese food -.-
ok and mac wings

so yeah pokes and i went shoppinggg~
shop for her stuff actually.

she bought a freaking fossil watch oh lawd.

and h&m shoes.

damn it.

i came home empty handed

i got my hair treated anw.

its fine now. i think

okay so i went to collect the headphones and went home.

phewwwish.

so tired damn it.

my legs ache. and pokes says im useless.

so mean.

okay jeez.

got band tmr or smth.

maybe project?

i have no clue .

ok. like sleepy and everything.

kinda miss dad.

home like empty abit.

and im not meeting da for new years eve.

wts. feel like crying and pulling my hair out.

whatever

Dog Loves Listening to Guitar

2011-12-28T00:07:00.001+08:00

OMG SO CUTE RIGHT?!?
so flufffehhh.
i watched it like15 times alr.
omg. so cute. so cute i can cry.

okay anw.
WILL. NOT. TALK . TO . MYSELF.
MUSTTTTT RESIST.
right hongyong?

okay i had band today.
had photo-taking at 345.
and there was this close up thingy?
haha like so awkward.
what if i closed my eyes.
or my hair's messy.
or frizzy.
or covers my eyes.
or my head looks big.
or...
nvrm.
ok so minghui , shuxian and i went to eat mac.
2nd time eating mac this year !
i ate fillet-o-fish for the first time in my life.
(shuxian and minghui stares)
pretty cool huh.
okay its like squishy and everything i swear.
as in the bread part?
seriouslyyyy.
like unlike the sesame seeded burger.
LOL seeded.
okay yeah. its squishy and soft.
i was so amazed and then i kept pressing the bread.
leaving some depression on the burger.
looked so cute.
and yeah. they both stared at me again.
i dont know why man.
ok so i was really full cos i had nuggets as well.
and i think i had indigestion.
like buffet after effects feeling on the tummy.

and we had sectionals and stuff.
for awhile.
i like to play in the open.
feel so open sounded.
sounded, LOL.

oh and feel so depressed.
oli's not buying my trumpet anymore.
and the consequences are freaking big
and my hopes are so crashed i can die
omg...
feel like just begging her.
and plus the financial crisis im in now.
now crisis as in i spent my month's allowance.
crisis as in sorta permanent.
if you get what i mean.
uhhh..

okay, body clock's abit screwed.

bye.

2011-12-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

christmas , christmasss.

yay now michael buble.
michael bubble. hahaha.
k his voice so naise.

okayyy.
so rosalind came to my house.
and we crapped, alot.
watched teeevee.
and watched movies.
yst night we watched 127 hours, basically screaming,
and then woke my sis up.
and we watched how the grinch stole christmas.
so scary.
ZOOOMG worse than horror show i tell yer.
okay and we partehh.
we took pictures.
chill out.
snacked. haha.
had the whole box of merci chocolates.
WHOLE box.
and chips and baby bites. haha.
and we ate noodles?
i dont eat at night.
midnight.
so umm. i had tummy upset.
whoops. and then at like 2 plus we felt so sleepy alr -.-
haha. the ''yeahhh gna party all night longg !''
and the '' MOVIE MARATHON''
failed. ikr.
oh yeah. and then midnight we exchanged presents.
who cares about boxing day man.
okay everyone else. so we ripped out wrappers.
anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i gave her a jersey.
and she gave me...... the same thing.
OMG RIGHT.
breast friends forever.
this is real friendshit .

okay and we woke up this morning.
to catch my elder sis nibbling on the merci.
uhhhh. hahaha.
and we went swimming. and played with the underwater cam for 10 mins?
and the cam died ._.
wthhh. and we went sauna.
i swear we nearly became roast.
the room was heated till 80 deg .
and yeah she couldnt take it. hahaahhaaa.
so funneeehh.

okay so we bathed and went back up to watch
30 mins or less, and social network.
so sleepy seriously.

k gna slp early.
like after this michael buble thingy.
he's kinda cute. haha

okay i am so dead.
did i mentioned this alr?
i havent done econs.
like . not even read what the hell the article's about.
think danielle's gna slaughter me and yiuwah really.
ok . gna try tmr.

k bye.
merry christmas smelly peeps.

2011-12-24T01:32:00.002+08:00

it's christmas eve alr.

time really flies.
rmb a year ago somebody appeared at my house
with so many teddies.
umm nope, not santa.

okay wierd day today.
sis made me mini her.
and she put eye liner on me.
i literally screamed big time when i saw myself in the mirror.
but yeah, i got used to it
dont really like it though.
its like.. if you use it for long, you'll have to use it like forever
cos without it ppl will say u look dead.
hmm.

and then i went to meet da.
went to plaza sing.
the headphones workk!!
so crap, now i have 2 headphones.
haha.
monday wed fri.
tues thurs sat.
sunday off.
okay set.

okay so we went there.
looked around for awhile.
cannot find rosalind's christmas present ):
she want jersey.
so ex.
i broke.
then we went to da's place for awhile to take stuff.
and went to ikea to eat .
first time going with him.
he suaku. really.
he's like. ehhh. why everyone got trolleys wan.
and , HUHH. why ppl got tray wan?!
and , where's my potato salad?!?
yeah. he only ate potato salad the last time he came to ikea.
that woman has no life really.
he only know chinese food.
he never tasted meatballs in his entire life.
and i forced him and he said it was going to be disgusting.
so when he really tried it he just smiled and stare at me.
idiot guy. but so cute. <-- adorable but ugly f.y.i
ok and we had the DAIM cake.
awesome-ness. same thing. he didnt believe me.
and like revenge? he made me try the salmon.
damn gross. so fishy. duh. salmon. fish. fishy.
k. and we headed home.

hold on. YOUTUBE ADVS ARE SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF.
()*#(@*#)@#

okayy.

sooooo.
so eggxictiritieited.
rosalind 's coming over tmr ! night.
and stay overrrrr.
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
so happeeeh.
had to act to solemn infront of da just now.
cos he jealous boi.
that i dont follow him to KL and stay in spore to have fun.
so he said, ok fine.. have fun. but not too much fun ):
hahaha!

lastly, stuffys.
if you're reading this, somehow ,
wherever you are,
please check your ichat alright?

and ,
merry christmas in advance everyone ! (:

2011-12-22T15:46:00.002+08:00

i am dead.

haha yeah.
havent done much of projects.
deadline : 3rd jan?
holy crap seriously.
im really enjoying the hols.
like rotting at home everyday.
not brushing my teeth till 3pm.
k . haha. irrelevant.
argh.
gta start doingggg.
5 mins.

okay going for band later.
i dont know about the concert tickets man.
since it's going to be my last..
haish. oh well.

okay bye.

2011-12-20T16:23:00.001+08:00

K NOT GOING BAND.

WOOHOO.

checked out the rehearsal schedule.

dont have the songs im playing.

so..

OKAYYYYY!

2011-12-20T15:24:00.002+08:00

ok.
why not last epi?!?!?!?!!
its like never going to end.

okay, dad's left for india already.
just.
he's going to be away for a month.
so he's going to give MD a miss.
not like he wont sleep.
but yeah, im gna miss him.
so awkward.
he's like, dont fight with your sisters ah.
and im like okay.
since when do i fight with them.
that reminds me.
sis took the hairband i just bought.
im going to freaking beat her up later.

okayyy yayy.
rosalind's coming over on saturday.
and then she's staying overnight.
and we're not going to sleep.
(i think)
and we're going swim.
im finally going to swim.
after like a year.
okay. rmb i used to swim like everyday .
and i was damn black.
i mean tanned.
and woo.
cos swimming damages my hair and makes girls flat,
i stopped.
once in a while.
heh heh.
she has underwater cammmmmmmmm.
feel like wearing pyjamas and cannon ball in the water.
so cool.
and it's christmasssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
no diff.

k . i really want to meet my pokes.
havent met her in a year !
well nearly...
its been so long ):

ok band ltr.
going to go school a lil early to stone with minghui.
like stone.
STONE.
literally.
woohoo. my fav past time.

k bye.

2011-12-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

feeling so lethargic. ):
i slept 8 hours tho.

haha when its was like 8pm my eyes were damn small.
my mom laughed at me for like 3 mins and i stared at her.
whuds so funneh?
im really tired.
pretty okay after a bathe tho.
dont feel so well.
prolly the fried chicken , fried everything is taking a toll,
on my throat.
and my forehead feels like its burning or smth.
but my mom say, '' nth lahhh. just because u have band tmr again.
dont think i know you wan me write letter for ur band teacher right.''
OMG MOM.
im in poly.
like P O L Y.
i dont think i did that in bukit view did i ?
hahaha.
umm.
i forgot.

okay.
rosalind's gna come over for christmas.
please please pleaseeee.
she has an underwater cam.
so.. hehhehheh.
not the bathtub pls, the pool.
k. hope she can stayyyy.

basically doing a very good job maintaining my job scope.
staying at homeee.
i watched tv for 6 hours straight today.
that's like a whole shift.
hahahaa cheyy.
anw tmr tayong dalawa last epi.
wadddddddddddd.
been missing out everything ever since school started.
and i finally get to catch one epi, and it's the last.
k better than nth.
y'know da watches it too?
gay boi.
he stay home for the past 00912012091239012 days.
and he watches it everyday.
this world needs some justice.

ok.
gna slp early today.
cos im tired.
):

early like.. 1 more hour?
(:

okay.

2011-12-18T22:38:00.002+08:00

omg.

i wanna go to the titanic artscience museummmmmm.
kkkk next year.
i start saving 50 cents a day.
0.-

haha.
went to meet rosalind today! ^^
finally, after like 2 months.
omg. so long.
she had ut and then i had exams and then she had somemore ut.
so wait wait wait.
.___. missed her so much.
we went to clementi to get stuff, eat go ntuc get junk,
and went to lepak place.
we really need to have a new lepak place.
it was raining and i nearly died seriously.
cos it rained, there were mosquitoes.
and i had 16 mosquito bites. i swear.
she had like 2.
-.- wai me.
imagine if those were aedes bites.
i would have died on the way home.
haha no actually i dont know.

okay so im meeting her for christmas !
the kind of emo christmas.
but i hope she stays over.
i cant go to da's, cos they're going to KL.
and my mom doesnt allow.
im going there in march anw .
so oh well..
rosalind here i comeee.
and y'know what?!
WHAT.
k i found the scrabble ring.
yayyyyyyyyyyyy.
didnt dare to tell her i lost it.
haha shhhh.
but i found it , so phew.

jeez, really wanted to spend time with sean han they all for christmas.
all da's fault.
):

okay gna go to sch tmr , for port ops proj.
again.
/: so sick of going back to school during the holidays.
urgh.

k bye.

2011-12-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

yes, speechless.

kinda tired of these issues going on.

on the brighter side,
my second sis bought me a pair of audiotechnica earphones at courts after dinner.
dad wanted to buy his harddrive.
and i saw these earphones.
like so nice.
been dying to have one of my own.
okay the skull candy spoilt. fine.
and yeah. the sennheiser one.
and the 3 ipod apple earpieces.
and the orange earpiece da bought me.
and the other one.
and alot more. trust me.
okay dear earphones, even if you want to die,
please die within a year so i can get the warranty.
so yeah, awesome sis!

really feel great to have minghui as my best buddy.
she's like the best ever person in my poly life.
really.
learnt my lesson not to jump right straight into conclusions next time.
i mean that's me. that's xiyu.
im stupid in that way or any other.

alright.

anw the earphones are noise cancellation ones.
i am very sure mom nagged at me just now.
just cant hear.
weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

k bye.

2011-12-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

OKAY.

went to do project with biyu and yiyan.
so productive ! hahaha.
okay we went to plaza sing, i went to send my earphones for repair.
now i feel stupid.
it cost me 37 bucks to repair the skull candy.
a new skull candy is 68bucks -.-
but later gayboi nag nag nag.
say everything he buy me also spoil.
im so mean.
and didnt mean to be mean.
okay. so. yah.

we went to do proj at orchard central.
went to spinelli.
wasted my money on ice chocolate.
it's freaking dense and everything.
not worth my 6 bucks.
i want gloria jean's ice chocolate ):
with 6 oreo cookies >:]
ya really. i used to put 6 in them.
like awesome. honestly.
fat and everything.
but worth the fat yozz.

yeah and we went to sticky shop to buy sweets.
so wanted to get some.
but over budget and stuff.
there was this i love you candy.
so naisseeee.
wanted to get for da.
firstly he's busy in his own world .
and secondly i shouldnt be the one buying this kind of stuff.
and yeah no money.
so too bad..
i told him. and he was like
WHHHHHHHHUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

got band day camp tmr holy crap.
is my bodyclock still screwed up or wad?
i had 9 hours of sleep and i felt so sleepy since 6pm.
like auto 6pm my eyelids started feeling heavy.
yiyan so niceee. she gave me sticky.
so awesome.
when im rich someday.
SOMEDAY. i will give her a jar or it.
not like i aspire to be rich or anything.
nahhhh.

okayyy so band tmr.
so tiredd, really ):

2011-12-13T19:41:00.002+08:00

official first day of hols?
awesome-ness.
sorta.

like no exams.
i can watch TEEVEE and not panic during dinner time.
k yah thats all.

went back to school to do projs.
with danielle and yiuwah.
well at least we found an article.
and i gotta start working my brains alr.
i think i switched it off after port ops.

been really troubled these few days.
finally made the right decision , to put everything down.
well, i mean , they say if you love someone,
giving in when you're right or wrong doesnt matter anymore.
i finally understood that.
like finally.
it's like im finally going through puberty or smth.
lol k no.
i just hope you wouldnt just step over me after i apologise.
doesnt mean im weak that i apologise.
or a matter or who wins or who is right.
i just want you to be happy.
and hopefully, nothing else matters.

for now, stupid projects.
feel like they're never gonna be completed.
and plus band day camp on thurs fri and sat.
10am-10pm.
dont think i will call it day camp.

alright, gta go.
i feel so disorganised and messy now.

everything in my life's so urgh.

2011-12-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

bitch life.
bitch bitch life.

i wish i could just get over it honestly.
this has nothing to do with me.
why do i feel like this?

isit my fault perhaps?
if it is, then i absolutely deserve this.