okay not gna wait for the melcamp uploads.
doesnt make sense anw,
to wait for it when it's over a long time.
it wont mean as much anw.


school's really screwed for me nw.
after i came back from MEL,
i cant seem to cope with the freakin life im in nw.
its REALLY screwed.
k first i thought exams were just over?
and there's this proj,
and another proj.
and i cant cope with school work.
like acc and stuff.
and sis's gone to aus so i cant get her help.
now even dad's gone to sarawak for 2 weeks , again.
and i cant ask for his help for ship ops, or mar eng, or fcs.
and cos of band, i cant come home for dinner most of the time and mom gets mad.
she thinks i deliberately want it this way.
and i cant meet da too.

and plus, just found out this week that exams are in 3 weeks.
I TOT IT JUST ENDED WTH.
really, wth.
and concert's coming up..
and now i have to carry sammy around every tues, and prolly thurs.
my arms hurt. cos tues's the busiest day in sch.
like bring him to sch, get caught up in the bus, go to t1a, walk around with him for break,
walk to t11b, took stairs down 5 floors, walk back to t1a for break, carry him up again.
and after lessons ended, i went to meet mom and sis at clementi.
clementi, i swear i nearly died.
ate jap .
followed mom down to get her groceries.
with sammy, yes.
brought him back to SP.
had band.
and brought him back home again.
my arms really so damn bad, partly cos of the arm wrestle.
mostly cos of benny. and nw my palms have blisters.
today's wed.
tmr's thurs, which means theres band again.
oh sammy, hw i wish you werent so heavy.
lose weight pls.
wads with my life.
u know the get back on the track thing?
i cant find the freaking track lawd damn it.
i feel so ... urgh.
maybe i had too much fun at MELcamp nights that God's punishing me for it now.
is it?

bai.