wth happened to th-cathatesfish.bs.COM
why is it .bs.sg now.
so ugly.
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so,
another of my emotional and ridiculously stupid posts again.
it's been a long time i must say.
been flooding myself with so much activities just to forget everything,
worry-free and no troubles.
those were bullshit.
at the end of the day when im settled and finally settle down,
the same thing sinks in.


i know i know,
recently been getting out of control and stuff.
even my parents barely know who i am anymore.
and some bad habits start kicking in now,
plans to do crazy stuff,
really crazy stuff, plus the vulgarities im using are really unacceptable.
maybe it's time to settle down and stop my nonsense.
who am i even doing it for?
i dont even think this is what i want.
Balance is what all of us strive for, am i right?
whether dissociative or not.
But then there are extra challenges for those of us who dissociate,
and as a general rule, the more dissociative we are,
the more difficulty we have finding that balance.
what the hell is this anyway?
sometimes i just feel so frustrated,
keeping things inside feels so mainstream i can kick some random ass.
i mean it.


not saying that im facing extreme dissociation or in a condition or crap.
but umm, hey everyone has their own limits aye.
and that, was my limit.
that teensy breaking point at the peak of all this shit going on.
past and present, safety from danger?
which is?


just want to stay at home in bed one fine day k.
one fine day, when im off.
some day.
i hope.
dammit.



btw, my guitar(kenny) got damaged.
really depressed now k.
cause i brought him out on monday.
think he got knocked or smth.
one of the tuning keys got damaged.
sigh, it's not that im afraid he'll die or anything.
but it'll take like a week or 2 to get him fixed.
and i cant play then. :(
sigh.


i need a unicorn.