sigh.

not really in the mood to touch blogger these few weeks.

all these posts just brings back so much memory and pain.

love turned hatred.

i don't know what im thinking,

but i just wished that i'd be happy somehow.

and forget my past and all the wrong doings.

im so tired of life.

wish i didnt have to go through this.

work has really tired me out through the holiday.

i know, it's time to have fun and everything.

but if i stop and have time to think.

i'll start to feel lonely again.

i regret everything.

i just want everything to stop right here.

or at least wish that i could catch my breath,

and time would wait for me.

i guess that's not possible.

perhaps, it's meant for me to be this way.

perhaps, it's my own fault and i deserve it.

i'm so stupid.

i want to get over this soon.

why does it have to hurt so much?'

i don't even think you'd have thought about me for a second.

i don't mean anything to you anyway.

right from the start, everything was a mistake.

why do i have to be the one to go through this?