Wow i actually forgot the existence of this blank page.
Where i vent my anger, poured my sorrows, fill it with gibberish.
I'm an ungrateful creature indeed.

Been probably 1.5 months?
I've been back in Singapore for 3 weeks now.
And sad but exciting, i'll be flying off again.

This place has too much memories.
Not fond memories. Just.. undesirable memories everything.
The pool, the gym, the common area, my house, the park, the car.
Bits and pieces of memories even though i hardly have much recollection because everything happened so fast, it felt like a dream.
For months, i couldn't tell apart dreams from reality.
For months everything that happened hurt me so much.
So much so, sometimes i just never ever wanted to be back to this wretched place.
Yet this is the place i call home.
I can't simply abandon everything, i know it myself.

So much has changed.
Independence and self-reliance? pretty much accomplished.
pretty much. pretty much used to doing everything alone back in aussie.
it really gives you time to ponder
i really question myself a lot about what i really want it life.
i have yet got my answers, so lets hope i sort things out.

Talk about questions.
There was an issue with burden and I about curiosity killing the cat.
We are both cats indeed.
I recently wanted some answers. Answers i've been dying to know for months.
at least to prove myself wrong, and probably give things a second chance since it was a bad start.
Sadly i ended up in disappointment..
I just feel like giving uncle b a kick sometimes.
why does it even bother me that much urgh.
I mean.. i wish i knew the reason to why i'll meet people like him in my life.
It puzzling because somehow or rather it just seems as though we're worlds apart.
...

I'm so glad to be back to my comfort zone.
The warmth (literally warm kns), family, mom dad and everything, and friends and burden.
Burden whom i can never live without.
I don't even know what i'll do when burden won't be around me anymore after february.
I really hope we'll never part. It's going to be so difficult.

Am currently working full time as a mouldy polar bear caged in bukit batok.
So if anyone doesn't mind visiting seh gor xiyu then you are most welcome.

Jk, will be on hiatus (again) for the month of december.
Seeya next year.

x.